Total Eclipse of the Heart

Death be Not Proud

Death be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not soe,
For, those, whom thou think'st, thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleepe, which but thy pictures bee,
Much pleasure, then from thee, much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee doe goe,
Rest of their bones, and souls deliverie.
Thou art slave to Fate, Chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poyson, warre, and sicknesse dwell,
And poppie, or charmes can make us sleepe as well,
And better than thy stroake; why swell'st thou then?
One short sleepe past, wee wake eternally,
And death shall be no more; death, thou shalt die.
Sonnet X - John Donne

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GuHai laid motionless in the middle of the ruined town. He accomplished his mission, eliminating a warlord who left the government of a small country furious. The warlord had a superpower country as his backing, that's why the government couldn't do anything, afraid that it might impact the relationship between the two countries. So all they could is to hire the organization to help them out.  GuHai mission is top secret, the words that come out were that it was a war between warlords. There's no backup for them. When they die, they died.  They were only mercenaries. Their life is expendable. 

Although his mind is clear, his body is beyond exhaustion. If suddenly an enemy shows up and wanted to kill him, he wouldn't be able to survive. GuHai thought that he was only 19, his life had barely begun. He worked and trained hard then within only a year he achieved his peak performance in the secret military training organization. He is a mercenary now. This is his first mission, but other people in his team, even though they are more senior and more experienced than him, had died. Now he has to find his way out of there by himself. But how can he? He can't even move a muscle. Is he going to die there? alone? Why did he insist to train himself like this? Why did he insist to become stronger? to be more than what he already was?  The answer is for Bai LuoYin. So he has to survive. he has to find Bai LuoYin. He has debt that he still needs to pay to him. He needs to go back to Bai LuoYin. Is Bai LuoYin still waiting for him? Does he still love him? 

"Bai LuoYin, wait for me...I will come back to you...wait for me..." 

Then he lost his consciousness. 

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"Why the hell you send him to that mission you idiot?!!" Zhen DaCheng shouted at LiuYuan.

"He is very much ready Sir. He is the best of all the trainees, even better than most of the seniors."

"what can you expect from a boy who has military training even before he has wet dream?!!! But that doesn't mean that you can send my nephew to the battlefield right away! He is the only one that my sister left for me!

"I'm sorry Sir, but I thought you want to train him hard."

"To train! not to battle! You even send him to a suicide mission!"

"I'm sorry Sir..." LiuYan couldn't refute anymore. Now all he could do is to wait for his fate. In his mind, he calculated 1000 ways of the most painful death that he might experience.

"Have you heard anything from them?"

"No Sir. I will send another troop to find them."

"Will? So you haven't sent any? SEND THEM NOW! NOW!!!" Chen DaCheng shouted then he massaged his temple. Now he feels sorry for sending his nephew to trained with the organization. 

"Yes Sir!" LiuYan then sent his men to follow up the order.

Zheng DaChen voice sounds calmer now, but you can still feel the rage in it, "It's been a month since they've started the mission. When did the last time you heard from them?"

"Two weeks ago. At that time they are ready to infiltrate the enemy camp."

"If you can't find my nephew, you know what will happen to you, won't you?"

"Yes Sir!" sweat dripping on LiuYan forehead. 

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"Brother in law, what happen with GuHai?"

"You still remember to call me brother in law? 

"Even though DaHai's mom is no longer here, you always be my brother in law."

Zheng DaChen snorted before he retorded, "And only now you contact me?"

Gu WeiTing remained silent for a few minutes before he replied, "I'm sorry. Things haven't been easy for me since she's gone."

"And you think it's easy for me? I lost my baby sister! And what worse is, I know I'm going to lose her the day she said she is going to marry you, but there's nothing I can do!"

"I'm sorry brother in law. I truly am sorry." Gu WeiTing despite being a proud person, was only able to lower himself in front of this other person. He has taken away his (ZDC) most precious person.

"Please brother in law, tell me where GuHai is."

Zheng DaChen massage his temple and finally said, "He begged me for help. He said he wanted to become stronger. So I can only send him to the organization."

"You really send him there?"

"Where else can I send him? you didn't allow him to land his feet in China again. And with your reputation, I can't send him to any military school anywhere in the world. Those schools can't even match with his ability anyway."

"I know you already know what had happened to him. I can't tell you where he is because we can't find him yet."

" I will send my men to find him."

"Sure, but make sure your kamerad don't hear about it. Not even a bit. With your position, you know what will happen if they find out you use military resources for personal business."

"I know brother in law. But he is my child. My only son. I have to find him." 

"I will share what my men found out so far."

"Thank you, brother in law."

After the conversation, Gu WeiTing felt this indescribable feeling all over his heart. He is afraid that he will lose his one and only son, the only person his beloved Mrs. Gu. left behind. He can't blame Zheng DaChen for what had happened, it was his own fault for not being able to give his son the love he needed. One thing for sure, he now has to find his son. 

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*hallo everyone, took quite some time to upload this chapter due to personal reasons (laziness to be exact). I have to say I was quite shocked when I heard about my beloved Xu WeiZhou marriage. I was thinking, my ship has sunk. But as a true fangirl, I will always support him. He might not be with my beloved Huang JingYu, but I love him just the same. I love him for his never-ending talents, for his music, for his works, so no matter what he will always have my back. and I will also wish and pray for his happiness, doesn't matter with who, as long as he is happy with the person, I will be happy too. jiayou Timmy! Wo ai ni!