A Fight For Integrity

XII | Music Box

Uncountable thoughts ran through his head as Seungmin just tossed and turned on his bed which he shared with Hyunjin. His mind isn't helping him to stay calm as he found himself lost in the tangled mess of feelings. Everything felt so complicated around him and he felt choked sometimes trying to keep everything by himself. His eyes glued to the other figure laying beside him. He stared at the boy for sometime while he was lost in thoughts that came and go in his mind about Hyunjin. His mind rambled around the boy sleeping soundly beside him. How much he wished he could hug the other though it was common thing between them but it won't help him in any way. Seungmin needed to get rid of his feelings. He knew that but staying right beside Hyunjin, Seungmin couldn't help but captivate his mind with Hyunjin. The thought that he was just his bestfriend got faded away among the thoughts he was imagining. He imagined the feeling of getting kisses and living like lovers but at the end what Seungmin found was just grief because none of these are going to come true and he knew that very well Seungmin tried to suppress his feelings as much as he could but he couldn't help but romanticize some thoughts with him. He wished if they came true but deep down Seungmin knew they weren't destined to be together. Seungmin already understood that Hyunjin and Felix had something going on but he tried to be as happy as possible because his best friend was atleast happy even if he himself isn't the reason.

Hyunjin's slumber was broken in the middle of the night while Seugmin was busy admiring him. As he tried to open his eyes Seungmin closed his and pretended to be asleep. Hyunjin woke up with a yawn and intended to leave the bed. His head felt heavy so he moved out of his room in order to get some fresh air. More like he wanted so see someone at that hour. Who? Felix. He went to the other wing of the palace to find if he was there. 'Is he awake? Should I go back?' He tried to get back to his room but that was opposite from what his heart wanted. He made his way to the other wing and saw someone standing on the balcony infront of the last room. Last time Hyunjin just guessed it and luckily it was Felix's. Hyunjin didn't knew which was Felix's room was but he knew it was on the next wing of his and Seungmin's room. He moved forward not caring if he was caught by any gaurds. He went towards the balcony and the moonlight wasn't clear either to provide enough light to see a clear picture of the person infront of him. He went behind the figure and immediately recognised who it was. It was someone he was looking for. Felix turned around to face him and his mind came at ease at the smile that formed in the boy's face that he was facing at that moment. The moonlight perfectly eliminated Felix's face making his freckles prominent. Felix's beautiful yet dark orbs shone against the moon light. Hyunjin felt himself stuck in the place and couldn't make himself to look anywhere as his mind and heart only wanted him to look at Felix and he did. The moonlight created an extra perfect version of Felix making his jawline looking more sharper. "What are you doing here?" Felix said though he wanted Hyunjin to show up. He missed him. He missed the older's attention and presence. "Wanted to see you" Hyunjin said, eyes struck in Felix face studying every inch of Felix's face. "At this hour?" Felix asked sounding amused. "Yes at this hour" and with that no more words were shared as both of them found themselves fighting the urge to look into each other's eyes. Somehow there was a fondness for each other and that was clearly visible in their eyes. Unknowingly both of their hearts paced up the moment both took a step forward, wanting to let their desire take over them and not holding back their temptation.

"Wanna Come to my room?" Felix was the first one to break out of the daze and backed away making Hyunjin aware of how close they were by then. "Sure" Hyunjin said  nodding like a kid. "Cute" Felix said under his breath. "I know right" Hyunjin replied and Felix laughed at him. Every moment Felix spend with Hyunjin, he got amazed by the older. Hyunjin got the first glance of the room that Felix used to live in as soon as Felix opened the door. 

Hyunjin entered Felix's room and was enclosed by a familiar scent. He recognized the scent. It was Felix's. Felix's scent surprisingly comforted him and he was ready to provide the same comfort.  His room smelled exactly like him and it made Hyunjin want to stay in there. Hyunjin came inside the room and Felix closed the door not wanting to be caught by the gaurds as no outsiders were allowed into this wing of the castle. Hyunjin roamed around Felix's room looking at each thing with curiosity. Hyunjin let out a small smile when he saw the pictures displayed on the wall. It was a series of pictures of Felix and his family but as the pictures moved to Felix's grown up stage there was a missing of a member. Felix's mother. Hyunjin noticed it. It reminded him of his father who too were no more in this world. "You were cute as a kid" Hyunjin said smiling at the pictures. "I was" Felix agreed. Hyunjin looked around the magnificent room and soon his eyes led on the window. It was a wide open one with glass sliding and it had a clear night view of the kingdom. Hyunjin never imagined a view from a room could be this beautiful. "Woah" He made his way towards the window just like a child. Felix laughed at the cheeky state of the boy. Hyunjin found himself concentrating towards the view in front of him that the sight of Felix cooing at him got unnoticed by Hyunjin."Hmm it's nice in here" Felix said keeping his hands inside his pockets. "It's beautiful" Hyunjin said and faced Felix. "Yep but that day on the hill was more beautiful" Felix said and Hyunjin smiled. "It was" Hyunjin remember his beautiful view. It was Felix.