"Hey, you freak" Hyunjin looked around to find who was calling him and surprisingly it was Jeongin. "You called me?" Hyunjin asked pointing towards himself. "Yes, of course. Who do you think I am calling then?You used so much of your brain earlier now you can't understand this thing?" Jeongin replied. "Sorry" Hyunjin said looking down. "I bet Felix would be so disappointed in you. I guessed earlier that you were no good. It was wrong for me to not suspect you. You acted so nice and i had the wrong feeling when I first met you. Don't think you are good for him. You are not. You can never be suitable for him. Have you ever thought whether Felix cared about you? The answer is a big no. He never did. He never trusted you too. You're just a betrayer who needs to leave this place immediately. Why are you still here? Are you not ashamed of yourself?" Jeongin completed and nothing can describe what Hyunjin was feeling. The words hit him just like thunder. Did he mean it all? Was it all true?
"Yes it is" Chan replied suddenly appearing behind Hyunjin. "Oh you read my thoughts" Hyunjin said turning back to go back to his room and locking himself back but that wasn't possible as Minho stopped him from doing so. "Where do you think you're going?" Minho asked raising an eyebrow. "To my room" Hyunjin replied. "To your room? There isn't any. You never belonged among us. It's just we had to keep you out of pity or what else do you think ? We like your presence? Hell no" "What's wrong with you? Why are you making me feel like i am a worthless piece of shit ?" Hyunjin said aloud attracting the attention of other members.
"What are you yelling for Hyunjin?" Changbin said as if he was annoyed. "What is your problem?" Changbin added. "What is my problem? You guys start acting this suddenly and i can't get you. Like what is your problem? I never said that i have any" Hyunjin said not understanding the situation. "We have one problem and that's you. You literally came out of nowhere and caused this much trouble. What was the reason? Oh why am even asking what excuse can you're stupid brain even think off" Changbin replied leaving the room. "Guys, i don't get you. Why are you acting so different? I want you to trust me one last time please. I am trying my best to save Felix. I am trying to find out where he is. Please try to understand me. Please believe me. Will you?" Hyunjin said and everyone stared at him blankly. Hyunjin turned to Jisung thinking at least he was with him. "Jisung ?" No response. "Look i want a yes or no. Don't stare at me like that" Hyunjin said and Jisung silently shook his head. "Not even you Seungmin?" Without saying something Seungmin left following the way Changbin went. "Heck what is wrong with you. It was all good a day before. You guys are telling me to leave right ? Okay i am leaving" Hyunjin said as his voice was shaking.
"Don't you dare run away from what you've created now. Felix would regret every part of him for even being friends with you. Instead of giving an actual solution you're trying to run away. Great job Hwang" Jeongin said making Hyunjin stop on his tracks. The next moment a tear rolled down his cheeks. Now matter what he couldn't hold it in anymore. He didn't care about crying in front of them. Loud sobs started to leave out of his mouth as he landed on the floor on his knees.
"Hyunjin, Hyunjin, wake up" a sudden shake made Hyunjin break out of the nightmare he was having. "Holy Jesus, it took so much time to get you to wake up" Jisung said as he handed Hyunjin to drink some water. "I am sorry-" "What are you sorry for?" "I had a dream. You all were telling me i betrayed Felix. I- I am your problem and many more things" Hyunjin said as his voice was shaking because of crying in his sleep. "Was i there?" "Yes I asked you whether you believed me or not and you said no" Hyunjin said out and Jisung took a breate silently.
"Hyunjin, i want you to look at me. Look whatever happens we are never going to say those to you. You are never our problem and we all trust you. You're our last hope to save our friend. Heck he is in danger and that's all what matter now. Don't think so negetively or look down on yourself. Hyunjin you are enough and you are one of the most precious things to Felix. I have seen the way he stares at you and I know how it is. Please don't trust your inner voices. They have a tendency to manipulate you to make you feel bad but you gotta overcome it" Jisung completed with a slight nod at the end. "I don't know what to thank you with and i won't say thank you by making it look so small beside what you just said" Hyunjin said as he wiped his tears. "I don't want a thank you or any reward. Just look after yourself and if something like this happens again tell me. I will be there to help. Get up now it's late" Hyunjin nodded his head and got of the bed shuffling the blankets. "I will be out there if you need me just call me" Jisung said and left the room to give Hyunjin some time.
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A Fight For Integrity
Fanfiction"What are we then?" Felix asked not looking away from the person in front of him. "Do we need a term?" Hyunjin answered staring at the other too. When we were children fantasies often came to our mind. But are they real? What if they are? Questions...
