A Fight For Integrity

XXI | What was happening?

Noise. Most abominate term for him. A look of bewilderment dispersing all over his brown mysterious eyes. The incessant noise echoing in his ears incrementing hysterically. But the lown look in his face spoke otherwise. It felt as if everything around him was happening too slow for his liking. All his eyes get was sight was blood, the substance which he despised the most. It felt like the gravity was trying to engulf him, the mother Earth by pulling him down.  The loud shriek leaving people's lips left his brain in a tumultuous state. It felt as if his tongue has been swallowed and cut off.  It felt asphyxiated and he really felt the need to renounce the place. The surroundings not assisting him too much. His body was working in another circle as his mind raced with thoughts at a mile per hour. It felt as if his lungs are pumping out the air in his body and suffocate him till there's no air left. Felix stumbled a bit regaining his composure. What was happening? How did he end up in this type of situation? No answer. But he knew he was the one responsible for this plight.

"No no no no no this isn't happening" Felix blurted out. "Felix" the sudden arrival of Jisung's voice was heard. "Jisung?" Felix was quite surprised for the arrival of his friend. "What are you doing here?" Jisung coaxed out grabbing Felix's hand and pulling to where Felix didn't know. Felix couldn't bring himself to protest either. He was terrified. He saw death. He tried to stay serene but there was a tornado going inside his head. "I am calling Chan" Jisung said fishing out his phone. "Don't. He is busy saving the left over the people" Felix said and Jisung sighed. Neither of them knew how to start a conversation as they stood there awkwardly looking everywhere expect their eyes. Jisung didn't knew how to comfort someone. He has seen death a lot of times earlier and it didn't effect him much now but he knew Felix was going through the same which he went through when he saw his mother dying in front of his eyes. He still remembered the man wearing a black mask attacking his mother with a knife in his hand while what he could do was to hide behind the cabinet watching him stabbing his mother. He didn't cry when he saw his mother laying lifeless on the floor while blood covered her body. He didn't know how to react. He stopped speaking after that day.

Out of all these the least Jisung wanted was to Felix going through the same phase so he wanted to help the other but didn't know how to approach him. "You want to talk about it?" Jisung questioned. Felix looked up staring directly into Jisung's eyes. All Felix could encounter is that he needed someone to comfort him. Understand him. That's why he nodded. "Okay then let's take a seat then" Jisung said pointing on the rusty bench laying lonely in the abandoned place. "So...." Jisung was the first one to speak as they sat themselves. "I don't know why are attacks being launched towards us" Felix trailed off. "I know the reason is me but I never wanted my people to die" he added.

"How did this happen? How did you know about this ?"

"I don't know I was in my palace when suddenly Chan came and told me that this place was attacked and I came here" Felix stated. "That doesn't answer why you were standing there. It was dangerous standing there. You weren't even in your right mind. What if something happened?" Jisung blurred out finding it weird saying this type of things. He never showed care before but he knew he needed to. "I don't know. It was so hard watching my people dying because of me" Felix said and Jisung nodded. Both of them sat in silence not knowing what to say further. Fearing speaking up turns out a bad idea. "You're different today" Felix said breaking the ice. "Last time I met you, you didn't talk with me " he said looking towards Jisung who now stared at him blankly. "Maybe I felt the need to talk with you today. You saw death and I know how much it can affect a person. So I wanted to make sure you are okay. And you're also different because neither you approached me. You didn't talk much that day too" Jisung said and Felix closed his lips forming a thin line.

"It's getting cold. You shouldn't stay here. Let's go" Jisung said standing up straightening his jacket. "Oh by the way I didn't ask why are you here?" Felix enquired standing up himself. "I heard about this attack from my dad and came here just to ensure all of you are okay. Where is Minho hyung? He came here today only. That's why I got worried and came here" Jisung said and Felix nodded.