luisa one shot (I do requests)

felix

"Im going to bed early tonight." Felix said to his wife. "Ok, Felix I will be up in a bit." With that Felix turned around and dropped his smile. He walked up stairs and changed into some Pajamas. He sat on his bed and stared at the wall, letting out a long sigh he turns the light off and lays down. Felix layed down on his back and just... stared. He was staring at the wall, he knew he wasn't psychically tired but he was mentally. It felt likes hours he was laying there but it has only been three minutes. Felix always had trouble sleeping and had intense thoughts at night. Tonight he was thinking about his wife. Felix loves Pepa but he was so tired having to calm her down over every little thing. "I'm not Pepas therapist.. how come it seems like this is all that's excepted from me? Is this all they think of me?" Felix thought to himself. "She is my wife though.. I should want to help her but it's hard. Doesn't that make me a bad person though? Or a bad husband? Not really wanting to help my wife? And what about me? I have no memory if the last time I was alone with myself. Or let alone alone with Pepa without it raining. We dont go on dates or anything anymore. Does she really love me or does she just rely on me? If I tried to tell Pepa would that make me selfish? It's not her fault she has this gift but maybe she needs to find a more constructive way to control it? Would anyone believe me if I told them? Would they say im so good of a guy to feel like that? Would anyone help me or just say it's all in my head? Is it in my head? I guess it is... but I don't know what else to think or even feel. I know I love her. And I love my kids. But do I love me? If I'm to busy being there for others am I there for me? Or is anyone there for me? No, I am doing this to myself if I just stopped thinking I would be able to sleep. If I can't be there for me and no one else wants to then... I must not be important right? It's not like I have a gift anyways..." Felix stops he puts his hand to his face and he feels the tears streaming down. He sits up and wipes his eyes. He gets a tissue and blows his nose. Felix gets back in bed trying to slow his breathing. He looks at the time and realizes he's been thinking for an hour. He finally tries to sleep but about 2 minutes later Pepa came in. She whispers "Goodnight mi amor." "Good night Mi vida." Felix whispers back. He falls asleep.