𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐬 [rini au]

𝟹𝟻. 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝

Nini's pov

"Will you go to prom with me?" Brett asked me as I stood frozen in front of him. I couldn't say a word. I was shocked that the person who did all this is Brett. 

I mean.. I don't want to go to prom with him. That's for sure, but on the other hand, I don't even want to hurt him. 

He did all this... so much work just for me. And I have to tell him now that it was all for nothing? That doesn't seem fair.

"Nini?" I heard his voice again as I was silent for too long, but I still didn't know what to say. 

Why is this happening to me? 

I don't want to hurt anyone but there is probably no such solution in which no one will suffer. At least right now I don't see any such solution.

All the people around were looking at me and just waiting for my answer and that stressed me even more because it meant that my refusal would embarrass him in front of the whole school. And I didn't want to do that. 

"How-  how can I say no?" I finally said in my shaking voice, looking at my friends because I really meant the question and they knew it, they just didn't know the answer. 

How can I say no?? 

Everyone started clapping and screaming. I suddenly felt Brett's hands on my body as he hugged me. My eyes just searched among people for Ricky but didn't find him. 

"Thank you!" he smiled as he pulled away. 

"Yeah.." I nodded as I managed to fake a smile. "Um, sorry Brett but I have to go now." I said and ran to my friends, not even waiting for his answer. 

"Girl what the hell?!" that was the first thing Kourtney told me. 

"Where is Ricky?" I ignored her question. 

"He left." 

"What? He left? Where did he go? When did he leave? 

"As soon as you- uh you didn't say no." EJ answered me sadly. 

One big tear fell out of my eye. "Where- where did he go?" 

"He said he wanted to go home, so he probably went to the parking lot." when I heard Big Red say that I ran in that direction.

When I got to the parking lot, I was looking for Ricky's car, hoping he hadn't left yet. Then I saw a person coming out of school with his bag in hand. 

"Ricky!" I ran to him. But when he saw me he rolled his eyes and avoided me. His eyes looked anywhere but at me. "Ricky, please wait!" I followed him as he began to walk faster toward his car. "Ricky, come on! You can't just not talk to me!" I tried to get his attention. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I couldn't stop it. We were only a few steps away from his car and he still didn't even look at me, but I didn't lose hope. "Ricky!!" 

"What?! What do you want Nini??" suddenly he finally turned on me, but as soon as our gazes met, he broke our eye contact. He tried to cover up the fact that he had tears in his eyes but I saw it. 

"Ricky, I'm sorry." I cried. "I'm so sorry. I didn't know he would do that-" 

"I don't care that he did it!" he interrupted my crying with his scream. "I don't care! I only care about the fact that you agreed!" 

"I didn 't want to hurt him." I admitted shaking my head. 

"So you just hurt me." 

"Ricky, I'm sorry. So sorry." at this point, I could no longer control my tears. "But don't say that. Please. I love you the most in the world. Hurting you is the last thing I want to do." 

"But you still did." 

"No- no please don't say that."

"Nini and why shouldn't I say it when it's true?!" his words were slowly but surely breaking my heart. "You wanted me to wait a few weeks just so you don't look like a whore but other guys don't count or what? How come Brett can do things like that but I can't?" one big tear fell out of Ricky's eye. "I have to watch him talk to you at school everyday and flirt with you, and now I have to watch you go to prom together?? How you will dance together on the dance floor to a slow song? How you will have your best night in your life as you had always dreamed of but without me?" he stopped suddenly. He looked into my eyes sadly as he shook his head. "That's not fair Nini. It's not."

"Ricky, I didn't want this to happened-"

"Me neither." he shook his head. "But you don't always get the happy ending you imagine." 

"Ricky, can we just talk about this, please?"

"No I uh- I'm busy." he told me. "You know, I have to go clean everything... I was preparing this great proposal but the girl I wanted to ask to the prom already has a date so.."

"Yo- you wanted to ask me to prom today?" I asked in shock.

"It doesn't matter anymore."

"Look, I know it's all my fault but I-"

"I don't blame you." he replied. "I'm just sorry it's ending like this again."

I froze when I heard his words. "Ending? Wh- what end? What do you mean?"

"Nini, I can't do this anymore." he cried. "It's too much for me.. I know it's my fault too because I agreed to wait but I can't anymore."

"What are you saying?"  

"Nini, I'm breaking up with you." he explained to me simply. 

These words broke me. 

"We both know that this will probably be the best."

"No it won't!" I disagreed crying.

"Nini, you don't know what you want! But I do! I know that I don't want to go to prom and watch my girlfriend be there with someone else! I'm sorry." he lowered his voice suddenly. "But I can't. " 

He turned and opened the door of his car. "Ricky, please don't do this. I love you!" 

"I love you too. That's why it hurts so much." this was his last sentence, then he got in the car and left. I just stood there watching his car disappear into the distance. 

I cried like never before. I couldn't even stand on my feet. I sat down slowly on the ground trying to start controlling my emotions but it didn't work. 

"Nini?! Where are you?" I heard the voices of my friends running out of school. When they saw me, they all ran toward me but then they saw me cry and they realized that my conversation with Ricky had probably not turned out well. 

Kourtney immediately hugged me. "What happened?"

"I- I ruined it. I r-ruined e-everything."
        
         
        
           
          
           
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i'm so sorry! but don't hate me!

please do not stop reading now! i have a plan!

also! I'm sorry it took me so long to write this chapter but school was extremely hard this week and when I wasn't studying I was sleeping bc i really needed to rest. I hope it will be better and that I will be more active again. 

love u guys, Sof♡