𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐬 [rini au]

𝟸𝟿. 𝚕𝚞𝚌𝚔𝚢

Nini's pov

Today is finally friday and I couldn't be happier. And not only because tomorrow isn't school but also because tomorrow is Saturday and Ricky promised to take me on a date and he always thinks of best ideas on how to spend our time together so I am very excited.

Everything has been good between me and Ricky since our 'little argument'. I explained to him what had happened and he decided to believe me, for which I am very grateful.

Now I am in a classroom full of students looking for a place to sit. I sat in the back corner. And then he walks into the classroom.

Brett

I've been avoiding him ever since he asked me out and I rejected him. 

He was looking for a place to sit when he looked at me. I immediately looked somewhere else so he didn't know I was staring at him. But it was too late, because he noticed me and unfortunately he also noticed that there was a free seat next to me. 

"Hey Nini!" he said to me.

"Um, hi." I smiled kindly trying to hide how nervous I was. 

"Hi." he repeated once more. "Long time no see."

I raised an eyebrow as I want it to look like I didn't know what he was talking about. "What do you mean? We saw each other in the hallway yesterday. We even said hello."

"Yes, but I feel like you're avoiding me." he told me honestly. "Am I right?"

Yes.

"What? Definitely not." I lied. 

"Okay." he said in relief. "Because I wouldn't want that." I tried not to look him in the eyes for this whole conversation. "I know it's been a little weird since I told you about my feelings, but I really don't want you to avoid me and I want us to still be friends..." he smiled at me.

This is good. This is really good! He said he wants us to continue as friends!

"..although I would have preferred if we were something more..." he finished his thought quietly.

Well now I feel bad.

"...but that is not up to me..." he whispered one last thought, thinking I couldn't hear him.

Now I feel even worse. 

I didn't want anyone to be sad. I don't want to hurt anyone but no matter how hard I try  someone is not satisfied. Either Ricky is sad or angry or Brett is sad and that makes me sad because I want to find some solution where everyone will be happy. 

"Brett, I'm really sorry, but you have to at least try to understand me." I looked at him for the first time since we started talking. "I just found out that my  ex-boyfriend cheated on me and also–"

"Hold on." he stopped me. "EJ cheated on you??"

That's when I realize what I just said. This is another proof that I speak first and then I think.

"No- yes- but uh he... please don't tell anyone." I begged him.

"Did he really?" he looked at me in surprise.

I rolled my eyes at the fact that he completely ignored my request.

"Promise me you won't tell anyone." I repeated.

"But why don't you want anyone to know? After all, yo–"

"I just don't." I interrupted him in a serious voice.

He just stared at me for a few seconds and probably wondered what to do with this information. "Okay." he breathed quietly. "And who did he cheat on you with?" he raised an eyebrow as he whispered.

"I really don't want to talk about it." I answered simply.

"That's why you don't even want to try it with me?" he ignored what I wanted again.

That's for sure not the reason.

"Are you scared it will happen to you again? I hope you know I would never do anything like that. EJ is an idiot. I don't understand how something like that could have even crossed his mind. Especially when he had the best girl he could possibly have."

ok that was kinda sweet

"Brett, I-"

"Good morning everyone!" the voice of our English teacher interrupted me. "Sorry I'm late." I looked at Brett one last time and saw that he still hadn't looked away from me.

"Before we start I want to let you guys know that you are going to do a project... You will have two weeks to do this and you will have to read a book that I will give you and then you write an essay about this book." As the teacher sat down, the classmates began whispering about the project. I also started thinking about my essay and what kind of book it will be. "Oh and I almost forgot..." Mr. Mazzara interrupted my thoughts. "You will do this project in pairs."

What?? But none of my friends are with me in this class.

"And since I didn't have time to split you into random pairs, we'll do it this way..."

His voice stopped when a girl started talking. "Will you let us choose our partner?"

"No. Not really. Each of you will be paired with the person sitting next to you right now." he finished.

I froze when I realized who was sitting next to me.

I looked slowly at Brett, who was already looking at me with a big smile. "We're lucky." he said genuinely happy with the information we just learned.

But I wasn't that happy. I wasn't happy at all.

I didn't want Brett to see how nervous I was, so I showed him a fake smile and I just nodded.

But only one thing bothers me.

...how do I tell Ricky this?
    
   
       
       
  
      
     
——————
HA, you guys probably thought that I'm not gonna be back till next month bc of my shitty activity lately.... but here I am!!

Well that's all I wanted to say byeeee

Sof♡