Dominating photographer 18+ ( Erotic Story )

Chapter 35

Let me love you
Love,
Don't wake me up.

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Lucas pov

I didn't go to LA. I can't seem myself moving for straight 10 mins after what my dad told me. After coming here, I planned to hear whatever he has to say and then leave for a flight destined to LA to my rora. But somehow I'm still stuck here sitting at my old room. Running my hand on my alreay messed up hair. My step mother stopped by after giving me sympathetic glance, she place the bottle of Scotch and hand me the glass. Without saying anything else she stepped out of the room. I delivered myself a glass of scotch and gulp it down. Then one more. I stand from my sitting position and bring out the cigar and lighter from one of the cabinet where I used to hide it. Never think it will be usefull at this time. I don't smoke much but sometimes it's feel refressing to smoke out your stress. My mind keep Returning on the conversation I just had with my dad. And it's surprising to say the least. I don't even have word nor any idea where to start.

The fact that me and rora met before is seem unbelievable, but the feeling is so good. We were already fated. I remember that little girl always play with me, and her two cute little pigtails that swings in a air whenever she walk excitedly, chirping and smiling with me to playground or the ice cream shop near our house. The memories is not clear but it's still live somewhere deep in my mind. That days was something else. The life in LA is much more peaceful and happy but then life took some drastic change.

The reason I'm here and not in la with aurora is only because I know we are fated and we meant to be together. And right now she needs time, so much time to come up clear minded to start a new life. And I will give her that. The things dad told me and what he talks with aurora.. I can say she is disturb now and depressed. She is taking all the blame on herself, I know that. But I can't console her now. She needed her "me time" to come up strong. It's hard to stop myself from going to her when she needed me so much, but she needed herself more than me. I will gonna aproach when the time is right. Right now everthing is messed up. She is letting her demons wins and her demons gonna play with her mind. Making fake scenerio seems real. Make her feel like criminal. Making her believe that she's responsible for what happen that day with her father and my mother. I'm not only one who suffered from grief and pain of loosing someone,she is too. She is leaving in a pain, regrets that not even hers. I would never think of her like that. She is a victim like me not a criminal. That day was equally bad for us. The universe was against us and we can't blame anyone for that. And I will gonna tell her everything. I will gonna make her believe that its not her fault. I too blame myself for years. Fight with my demons so much... I still fighting with them. But now they can't get into my mind and play with it. I will not make them ruin my life nor rule my life. And I promise that ill never let aurora looses against her demons. She has to fight with it on her own and strongly. She is a strong ass independent woman and I know she will wins. I will make it sure of that. And for this she needs time and space, a different less chaotic place and she choose correct to go back to her hometown. She indeed needed that old memories. She has to faced the reality, that's when she will able to come out of the past and live in present without any greif and all. And I know she will.

The thought of loosing her hurt me so much that it hard to breathe for a minute. She was trying to distance herself from me, she runned away from me but she has to come back to me.

I focused on my work for next few days . It's hard to concentrate but I managed. Everything reminds me about her. The feisty little thing, her kinkyness, her body that plumpy lips, and those captivating hazel eyes. I'm missing her her so much. And let me tell you I never missed a girl. Bacause on the first place I never got attached to someone. I always made a wall around myself and never let anyone in, But she invite herself very fluently and sink in in my life very smoothly.