GROWTH

Chapter 16

Bella

It's been two weeks of therapy and I must say it was worth it. I see growth emotionally and mentally, I'm loving me again and embracing the love I'm getting from my family and my man Amir.

My up bringing had a part to play too. I was brought up to know my worth and have in mind that I am beautifully made regardless my size or colour. So I don't know why people were trying to take that confidence from me.
Looking in the mirror one last time, I smiled at the woman I was growing into. My phone rang interrupting my thought, I looked at it and it was Amir calling. "Hey babe" I answered

"I'm outside your house mamas" he said sweetly. I smiled ear to ear and applied lip gloss on my full lips and left to see him. We had a lunch date and a sis was hungry. Once he seen me out he got out his car and kissed me on the lip. "You look stunning" he complimented. I thanked him as he opened the car door for me.

"You look spiceyy too, I could eat you now you know I like my men spiceyyy" I joked causing him to laugh.

"You're something else Bella"

"You love me anyway" I said and we both smiled.
He drove with one hand while the other was caressing my thigh which melts my heart.
Getting there he pulled a chair for me to sit, we made small talks over wine until both of us were ready to order.

"What are you getting" I asked him
"Whatever you're getting babe" he said clearly not minding.

I ordered for us. We ate in silence and had small talks after, I had want to see my parents and siblings after lunch so we made a stop there, I missed them although we texted everyday.

Amir dropped me home after which I asked him to stay the night and he gladly took my offer, not that he had a choice ha. I took off my clothes and got comfortable. He loosened his tie while I helped him take his shirt off, he smelled so nice like always.

"Babe, come to church with me this Sunday?" He said randomly. I wasn't surprised, maybe I expected this but not today. Not that I had a problem with the Church but hell yeah I knew God existed.

I sighed and replied "I will give it a thought" he smiled at my response and got comfortable in my bed. I had a lot of questions to ask him but I guess I would let it slide. Growing up, we were made to understand that God got our backs going to church or no and I'm a witness to that in so many ways.

Unlike Amir who grew up with a strict Christian mom he was  highkey a church boy and took the church thing too serious. While people go to church my family were at social or charity events serving humanity and to me that's a godly thing to do too..

"Looks like there's a lot on your mind babe, feel free to say it" he said bringing me out of my thought.
"Why do y'all go to church anyways?" I asked
He went on and on about how people of same faith thus; people who believe in God come together to worship him and be a testimony to other people of low faith. Which was interesting to me because aren't that similar to sharing grace at the dinning table? I shrug and said "that's what's up" making him laugh.

I smiled at his goofy self and laid my head on his chest while embracing him with my arms for warmth.

Amir
"I love you" I said to Bella as she lay peacefully on my chest. She said same words back and this time meaning it.

We were getting serious and I loved every bit of it. I saw  forever in her eyes and my kids with her. Thankfully to God she was gradually healing and I couldn't be more happier for her. I caressed the side of her face  as we laid in comfortable silence.