GROWTH

Chapter 8

Missy
These past weeks have been very heart breaking. Isabelle encountering an accident, her body going missing for three weeks was hard hitting, physically and mentally.

Worse when she was thrown down the streets a week ago makes the whole situation draining. For a moment we thought she died. The media didn't make it any better too, each day they had different stories  about our family.

Thinking out loud, I did not realize Bella caress the hand I had in hers. She laid in the hospital bed lifeless, bruised and pain shown all over her beautiful face. Deep cuts on her thigh and stomach.

"Mommy" she cried.  A tear fell down my cheek, I looked away and cleared it. Moments like this my family were down in spirit so I had to be the strongest pillar to hold them than usual.

She entertained no one but me,  female doctors and nurses.

She quivers and pants so bad when she sense a male figure around. My baby was traumatized. It sadden Dickson more because her daughter didn't want to see him, De'andre and Ahyoki weren't allowed in here either. Bella says she didn't want them to see her like this, they understood but it still makes them desperate and curious.

She is yet to tell us what happened, we aren't pressuring her though. My baby had nightmares and screamed for help at night. It is so sad and disheartening seeing your child go through this.

According to tests she was raped and beaten multiple times, she had STIs which was being treated. The heavens only knows what else those psychopathic men put my daughter through. I curse myself and moments working as a spy, I feared some pasts would catch up but I did not imagine it to be on my family!

"Shuush, it is okay baby. I'm here" I soothe kissing her forehead

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Isabelle
I clam down when I noticed big princess's hand in mine. These were moments I needed my mom more than the heavens.

This was a test I wasn't ready for, if God was testing my faith in Him someone tell Him I so much wasn't ready for this. I hate every moment of it, it broke me instead of making me stronger. I should have died and not survive.

Now my mom blames herself, I hear her pray to God to forgive her and her past. She says it is her fault which never is because she didn't tell that deranged man to have his revenge on me. He being arrested didn't change anything, he hunted me in my dreams anyway

If I had died there wouldn't be any of these much pain and hurt. Now I had to grow and heal. Something I'm not ready for but will have to do it for my family.

A man did harm to me now I'm traumatized by all men including my own dad, brother and boyfriend! They scare me, they bring back memories I don't want to remember even if they keep coming back.

These deep cuts would be there to remind me, am I ready to love them? No!
Would I ever? No!
Would I continue preaching to sisters about self love and self care when I don't even know how to love and care for me? Maybe. Maybe not
Would i-...

"It's time for your meds baby" my mom announced interrupting my thoughts

I frown, I was my parents baby of course but I didn't want to be babied like this. Being fed and bathe. I felt useless, a burden!

After taking them big princess was about to help me lie back which I shook my head no. I was tired of lying down I wanted to sit at least for few minutes.

"I'm sorry baby, I couldn't protect you like I promised. I'm so sorry" she said

"I will only accept your apology if you stop blaming yourself mommy" I sigh. "You said the world is unpredicting, you prepared us for this, especially me. although we never wished for this, it happened anyway, I wasn't ready for this either! Blaming yourself will only worsen me mentally and it will not change the hands of time either mom." I cried

She nodded looking away to wipe her tears. I know she cries but didn't want me or my siblings to see. Life has thrown lemons our way now we are drinking its juice bitterly and hoping for a sweeter taste later. Something nature does. Rich, famous or not.

"Okay little princess, I love you" she said forcing a smile

Her phone rang moving our focus to it, I seen 'big daddy' pop up. 'Yucks' I thought to myself. The heck she saved dad's number like that, my parents are just crazy ha.

"Okay give the phone to Andre" she semi yelled. Clearly she was stressed, a fact I did not like.
I hadn't even realize she spoke for few minutes

Shaking my head, I heard her cuss Andre out. "Boy if you don't eat what your dad prepared and stop with em petty excuses saying you miss my cooking, imma smack you through the phone" she huffed

Andre was clearly a Mommy's boy I mean we all are but the boy was extra. Mom being here made him miss her but want to use dad's cooking as an excuse to see her soon, dad cooked perfectly fine so Andre is clearly bullshitting. Poor baby.

She said few more instructions and ended the phone. Power woman ha.

"I love you too mom" I finally said

"Me more princess"

She stared at me knownly, sometimes it scared me that my mom knew me like the back of her hands. I fought it, I fought the tears that was eager to fall down my cheeks. I didn't want her to see no more of the hurt I was going through.

Starting to feel sleepy thanks to those meds I yawn making my momma smile, she liked it when I slept peacefully which was rare thanks to these worrible dreams I keep having in the middle of my sleeps.

I said a little prayer. No I'm not angry with God but the moment it happened and the awful events that took place, I wasn't ready nah but shit happens, unexpected things.

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