Always By Your Side | TAEJINKOOK ✔

THIRTY EIGHT

Third Person POV:

He gave up, Jung Kook went off and Seok Jin kept what Jung Kook have said before walking to trace the light. “The best gift you could give me is to let me go and the best gift I can give you is to grant that.”

“Give yourself a chance to live after I leave, that’s the only way I can easily arrive where I am now belong.”

After his last birthday with Jung Kook, Seok Jin felt all of the places around him was dark. He entertained no one. Yoongi have tried everything, he gave his focus on Seok Jin, and without noticing it, Kim Taehyung too… Disappeared.

Yoongi even asked Nam Joon about Taehyung, he only said Taehyung was doing okay. Yoongi wasn’t upset, neither Seok Jin or Jeon’s.

But Seok Jin thought why fate is being unfair to him. Mr. and Mrs. Jeon never thought of losing their son, it became hard for them to accept it, they all gone through so much. It was a tough battle of toughing up, they had to be tougher for Jung Kook’s wish that a piece of paper miraculously appear on Jeon’s house. “Live a happy life Mom and Dad.”

None of them has the cloud mind with the same weight as Seok Jin. Carrying all of it for long, moving to different countries to chase one who probably want to walk away from him too, made Seok Jin felt crushed.

It's up to their fate if they’ll meet again. Its up to their happiness if they have to chase it or it will voluntarily knock back to them.

“Hyung~ Its so hard to keep my mouth shut, just meet him, tell him everything inside your heart, or maybe you really found–“

“Send Mom and Dad my greetings.” Nam Joon took over the position Taehyung have left at their company, Jeon’s and Kim’s? Their company drifted apart after the case of Park’s.

It's not some kind of grudges about what happened to Kim Taehyung, but them just going into different ways.

Taehyung, after his recovery he flew at Australia and lived there. Even Taehyung’s own family haven’t had a good communications with Taehyung, just casual checking up if he arrived well, eating well, recovering well and that’s it.

Taehyung wouldn’t deny that was homesick. “You walked away for a thought that Seok Jin might hate you? Push you away?–“

Taehyung looked at his painting as he watered the flower and jug the stem through it. “See Hyung! You still love him, I know you do, so why cut him off?”

Taehyung felt a throbbed on his chest as his hands desperately search for warmth, for someone to hold. “Time will tell Joon.”

Nam Joon frustratingly turned to face Taehyung’s ready to dozed off response. “Its been two years, if it's hard for you, how about Seok Jin? I heard he’s been travelling different country, and that is maybe he’s looking for you.”

“You know what? Both of you should talk it out, since Jung Kook went off, you and Seok Jin fainted, you only went home 2 times, you’re cruel!~ I even cried one night asking you to come home but you didn’t, heartless.” Nam Joon spats as he shoved his way out of Taehyung’s room.

Taehyung smiled at Nam Joon's last word. 

Nam Joon slid the chocolate bar and headed to the solution he thought was good for his brother.

Not too long, as if both if them saw a ghost. Nam Joon scratched his nape as he saw Seok Jin opening the door for him. “U-Uhm… I know its your birthday, you and Jung Kook and I should’ve brought the flowers–“

“Was it you?” Yoongi cut off smiling at Nam Joon. “MMM?” Nam Joon dumbfounded asked what Yoongi was talking about, and as he recalled what he said. “Uh? The flower? Its Hyung–“

“C-Can I see him?” Seok Jin asked, and Nam Joon wanted to slap himself, he got to hold his tongue for the times Yoongi and Jeon’s are asking him, he even chose to keep where his brother was in exchange of his time with Yoongi, and he believed that’s a hundred percent cruelty.

“Nam Joon-ah, please…” As to Nam Joon’s revenge to his own brother and wanting to be selfish…

Nam Joon pursed his lips before he smiled at Seok Jin.

Taehyung was squeezing his eyes, and was locked at the frame of someone so familiar to him. Both felt like their heart was being worn out, thundering as Taehyung slowly lift his gaze.

The flower he had bought was gripped tightly. “How have you been?” Seok Jin asked feeling the comfort as he finally saw Taehyung collects himself.

“Jin.”
“Tae.”

Two years, without hearing each other’s name from the person you’ve been looking for, was a bit unreal.

“Its my birthday…”

“I’m sorry Jin, I know its not easy for you. Everything… I left to protect myself and that’s selfish.”

Taehyung doesn’t have any idea when he left what happened with what he left behind, he shouldn’t feel the brokenness he felt when Jung Kook went off.

Taehyung doesn’t have any idea how Seok Jin repeats what he did after Taehyung was hurt and it is to starve himself, Seok Jin avoids everyone.

He didn’t know how and why he was as hurt as Seok Jin when Jung Kook went off. He admits to himself that he got attached to Jung Kook in a way, that was undeniably great despite the short time. The conversation that him and Jung Kook had at the forest was his pouring emotions always getting him into the edge.

“I am not fond of you, but I don't really hate you, because I know now, you are as good as me, actually you’re even better than me. But what you did by helping my family despite us being rivals before, was on the different level of concern. Its love Kim Taehyung.” He didn’t know the meaning of love anymore, if the love and pain was linked, he better not let Seok Jin go near him again. He’s willing to walk away.

When Jung Kook hand out his palm he says… “Seok Jin connects us, his past and present's other half and maybe in our next life we could have a good start?” All that had happened at the mountain left a hole in Taehyung’s heart that no place of escape he could stayed at without having a thought if it.

He even wonder if he’s still normal as he was finding himself crying with a thought of Jung Kook and Seok Jin.

“Kim Taehyung–“

“Happy Birthday.” Was uttered sincerely by Taehyung, deep inside wishing that Seok Jin must be happy by now, that Seok Jin was there to announce that he was finally living... They had a lot of things in mind but they’ve stayed quiet before Seok Jin says…

“Why did you left? Why did you left me with nothing but questions?– But never mind those, now that I found you, let me return the thing you left me… Allow me to ask you questions and you have to answer me with honesty.” Seok Jin was having a battle with his own hearing and his crazy heartbeats, he was nervous.

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