It's been a week, Babi.
Everyday, I lost the ability to get up and continue the day.
Every sunrise hurts — it reminds me of another day to spend without you here with me.
I hated breakfast, I hated everything in the morning.
Bakit mo ko iniwan? Hindi ko maisip kung bakit.
Diba nangako tayo? Nangako ka diba?
Naniwala ako sayo. Naniwala akong hindi mo kayang maghiwalay tayo, pero look at us now. Isang linggo mo na akong natiis. Isang linggo mo na akong hindi tinext. Not even a single message. It hurts so much. I almost die everyday. At araw araw hinihiling ko na sana namatay nalang ako. I can't keep up with this painful shit. It's draining the life out of me.
Sabi nila, you're ok already. Tumatawa ka na daw, back to your normal life. I envy you. I hope I can do that, too. Sana kaya ko din maging masaya gaya mo. But I am happy because you are ok now. That's all I ever wanted. Maging masaya ka, kahit wala na ako.
Even after all this, kahit mawala na yung sakit. Kahit umokay na yung pakiramdam ko, mahal pa din kita. Ikaw pa din ang gusto kong mahalin. Wala akong pakialam kung hindi na ako, pero para sakin ikaw pa din. Tutuparin ko yung promise ko sayo. Hindi na ako magmamahal ng iba kung hindi lang din ikaw. I can't imagine waking up in the morning 5 years from now with another man who's not you. I don't want to let go of your memories. Lahat yun dadalhin ko hanggang sa buhay ako.
You're everywhere I go. Until then, I'll wait. Even if it takes forever, or another lifetime. Maghihintay ako. I love you, babi ko.
