The Silent Mate

Chapter 15 : home

*Skylar's P.O.V.*

It felt dark around me was filled with darkness. i couldn't see where i was. The last thing i remember was that Kai found me. he was there and i had hope i would be safe. am i dead right now? is this what it's like to be dead? why is it so dark? why can't i see anything?

"I love you Skye please wake up. Part of me is angry at you for leaving. How dumb could you be to turn yourself up. We would of handled it and got through this. But I understand why you did because that's who you are. You put others before you. I'm proud of how brave you got and you are a true Luna. I couldn't have asked for anyone better. I love you Skye. I need you to be okay because I can't live without you. You are my life and my everything. I want you to get better. He's gone I got rid of him. He's no longer a threat anyone with him are either killed or in the dungeon. You're free. You are safe now. I want a family one day but I only want one with you. So you need to wake up so we can make that happen okay? When you wake up we can go where ever you want or do whatever. I just hope you don't shut me out" I heard him. That's my Kai. 

I'm here Kaiden I'm right here. I can hear you! why cant i speak? I'm sorry for leaving I had to. I wanted to protect you and the pack. If i had stayed he would of attacked and killed you all. I love you too Kaiden please hear me. I'm trying to tell you but i cant move. I feel like I'm paralized. I'll come back to you i promise. Just give me some time to figure out how to wake up. 

I heard his mother, he hasn't left my side? that stupid alpha will get sick if he doesnt eat or sleep. His mom is right it is not his fault. it's blake's. please take care of yourself Kaiden. I'll be with you soon. 

time went by which seemed like years to me. i felt someone hold my hand and by the feel it was Kaiden. He was back. I felt a rush run through my body i felt better not as sore. i felt my eyes flutter and light hit me and i was back. i blinked a bunch of times and i saw kaiden sitting by my side. he was here holding my hand and asleep next to me. he looked adorable. my cute adorable alpha.  

I brushed his hair out of his face. and whispered an "i love you, kaiden"

his eyes fluttered open and looked right at me. he jumped up and clicked a botton which i assume is to call for a doctor. I smiled at him and for the first time i saw tears in his eyes. he was crying, but why?

"You're awake, i thought i was going to lose you !" he yelled and hugged me "dont ever do that ever again! i was waiting for you. i left and came back to find out you were gone! you know how much that worried me? i was scared i lost you for good. What would i have done if i had found you dead huh? i'm mad at you," 

I felt bad and i pulled away and looked down. maybe there was another outcome if i had stayed and trust that he knew a plan that would work. but i was too scared of too many casualties that would happen. it would be my fault and families would of lost loved ones. I thought i was doing the right thing but i guess i didnt really think of how it would of affected Kaiden. I made him upset with me, what do i do?

"I'm sorry," i looked down and away. i couldnt look at him knowing hes mad at me. i make people angry. i felt horrible, tears were in my eyes. i was scared again what happened in the past happened again. i told myself i wouldnt let myself fall to that point and being silent again. but the fear of messing up and making people angry is rising inside of me. 

I felt a hand underneath my chin and made me look at him. i tried to look away but he didnt let me. "I shouldnt have yelled i'm sorry. I was just worried about you," I nodded but i leaned back and away. Trying to process what is happening. we must have defeated Blake considering he is here and i'm still alive. 

I didn't expect to wake up and get yelled at. I understand why though. I deserved it. but i feel broken all over again. It worked he won he broke me again. He never touched me but what he had done was worse. 

"Skye? are-" Kaiden was cut off when the doctor came in

"Oh, Skylar you are awake. It's good to see you up, how are you feeling?" He asked me and i didnt know how to respond. I didnt feel too much in pain. actually there was no pain. I felt fine. i was just afraid. 

"Good. not in pain" i said short and not much words. he nodded and did a whole check up to make sure I was okay. but he never spoke or asked me anything as he knew i didnt want to. He understood that much but Kaiden looked sad and guilt filled his eyes. I know he regrets yelling at me and i'm not mad at him. Nor am i upset with him. Blake's words just got to me. gosh sometimes i feel bipolar. 

The doctor said i could leave and Kaiden helped me up and insisted i was carried to the car. Even though it was not necessary i didnt feel like arguing. I held onto him and enhaled his scent. It calmed me down and made me feel more relaxed. 

He drove us home and as soon as he did he took me to our room and when he was about to leave i grabbed onto his hand and pulled him down. I wanted to cuddle, i missed him so much. 

"I missed you," i told him and hugged him tightly. I was still afraid but i didnt want him to feel worse. 

"i missed you too," he told me and embraced me too. I felt safe and warm. I'm happy to be back home. 

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Thankie for reading! hope you enjoy! my apologies for not updating in a while i just started school and i haven't been on in a while. till next time <3