Forever Lost

Chapter 17 - Lies

Note: tysm for 2k reads <3

Tw: Self abuse, kinda just a Hurt/Comfort chapter because life is kinda evil.

Grians POV:

Anita climbed up the ladder and skips a couple of the wooden handles on her way to the balcony. Once she reached the top, Grian sat down and leaned on the wide trunk of the willow tree. He stayed there and looked down at his hands and his shoulder to see the wither still slowly spreading around him. The hairs and branches of the tree shaded the area, creating a cool, dark spot to keep away the heat of the rainforest.

The ladder next to him started wobbling back and forth. Before he knew it, Scar was making his way down to the forest floor. He watched his friend get down to the last Rungs on the ladder, only for his foot to miss one of them and cause him to fall of the ladder completely.

"Ow." Scar sat up and blinked a few times to clear up the sudden head rush.

"Hi Scar..." Grian pulled off a small smile and kept his head down low.

"You ok? All of this stuff going on...your not ok, something's bothering you. It's bothering you a lot."

Scar crawled over to Grian and started to comb his hand through the blondes hair.

"It's fine Scar, just tiredness getting to me."

"Grian, you know that you can tell me anything right?"

Grian lifted his head for a moment and looked Scar in the eyes. So many thoughts washed through his head. I can't tell you anything, you know that Scar, even the thing I should probably tell someone about, anyone except you...he thought to himself before melting into the touch of the man holding him in his arms.

"Scar, the girl that Bdubs brought with him asked me how I make the group trust me so much and what my backstabbing plan was."

"Did she make it sound like a joke? Do you know her?"

Scar always handled stressful things so well, usually when it was the stress of someone other than him.

"I have no clue who she is. I'm scared about everything Scar, I'm scared of...." Grian paused, scanning his list of options.

I'm scared of you never caring about me. I'm scared of loosing you. I'm scared of loosing my wings. I'm scared that someone's gonna hurt us. I'm scared I'll be the reason someone gets hurt...

"Take your time Grian, it's ok."

Grian took a deep breath in and closed his eyes.

"I'm scared that when this all collapses on us...something might take you from me."

"Gri, things might not be the exact same, but when this is all over, it's either you come home with me, or I stay here with you. I'm not leaving you."

A tear rolled down Grian cheek as he shoved his face into the crook of Scars neck. Scar rubbed small circles on Grians back in attempt to calm him down. The Rainforest provided a calm backdrop to help with any stressful situations. To be honest with himself, this is what he was scared of loosing at the moment. With all of the chaos going on..him and Scar haven't had a peaceful moment like this is days.

"Grian, we can go back in your room if ya want? It's much more peaceful up there, and it has a fireplace. You need a day off, your so tired."

"That's sounds nice..."

Grians legs felt as if they were being held together by some glue stick and a little scotch tape. He's almost forgotten about the feeling that rushed through him whenever Scar got so sweet with him. Scar had a trustable voice, a voice that was calm and soft and was always something Grian loved to hear.