Desire - Merddison

Chapter Fifteen

Meredith's POV

It's still fairly early in the morning and I was at the vets for Doc to get an update on him. After sitting with him for a bit the other night, just to be with him. He should be able to go home at some point so I phone Derek to let him know and to see if he's able to collect Doc if he is allowed home today.

"Hello?" I say to him. He answers the phone sounding out of breath but hasn't said anything yet.

"Are you there? It's about Doc" I ask him.

"Hi," he says to me, then he speaks again but this time not me, "no, no, no, no, no. It's about Doc," and then speaks to me again, "Yeah. No, I'm here."

"Doc may be able to gome home today, my shift starts soon so I won't be able to bring him. Can you pick him up?"

"Yeah I can pick him up this morning."

"You sure?" I ask, just in case he has a surgery booked in.

"Sure. Bye," he says before his voice fades away abit and the phone makes some random noises as if someone else was taking hold of the phone, "No, come on."

"Dr Dandridge. Dr Dandridge. I... We're gonna have to call you back. We're trying really hard to have some decent sex here." Addison laughs, thinking that it's Finn on the phone, not me. The phone call ends and I put my phone away in shock of what I just heard. By the sounds of it, they're not having good sex right now, yet somehow I still feel jealous, about both of them, but mostly jealous of Derek, because he gets to be with Addison.

Umm, brain, can you stop thinking about her please, there's no need for this.

Finn then walks into the room with Doc.

"Everything OK?" He asks me.

"Yeah. Everything's great," I say before turning my attention to Doc, "Hey, Doc. You look good." I look back to Finn, "He looks good."

"It may just be a virus. But I'd like to wait until we get the blood tests and the x-ray results back before I say anything for sure." He informs me. Fingers crossed it is just a virus then.

"So he can go home today? Cause Derek says he can pick him up."

"He can go home." He smiles.

"You hear that, Doc? You can go home." I say to Doc as I stroke his head and ears.

"So you and Derek, uh.. you're together?" Finn asks me, he must not have met Addison yet then.

"Uh... uh, Derek and I are, um, just friends. He's married and I'm knitting a sweater. And, uh, well, I guess I'm rambling, which I tend to do a lot of lately, and I wish somebody would just tell me to shut up. But my point is... yeah, we're.. uh.. he's married and I'm knitting a sweater." I ramble on.

"So you're single?" He asks me.

"Single."

"I ask because I was wondering if you'd like to go out with me."

"Out. With you."

"On a date. Tonight."

"A date. Tonight." I repeat.

"And you're repeating everything I say so that you can buy yourself some time and figurre out how, a way, to let me down easy. It's ok. I get it."

"No. No. I... I.. um... you know, you're very... it's just that if I were, you would... not dating." I say, unable to get my words out properly, because what I'm really trying to say right now is that I'm not dating.

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Addison's POV

So mine and Derek's sex this morning was a bit disappointing, no matter how hard we tried. It probably would've helped if I could stop thinking about Meredith, and.. maybe stop picturing her when I'm trying to have sex with my husband. Ever since the bomb fiasco, I think about her a lot. A lot more than I want to be thinking about her. It was that hug. There was just something about that hug that's lingered around. I love my husband. I love Derek. I do. But this strange feeling and flutter for Meredith would just not go anymore. And it's tormenting me.