TRIGGER WARNING: Insecurities, trust issues.
(IM SO SORRY. I HAD WRITERS BLOCK BUT AFTER WATCHING THE SANDLOT AGAIN AND WATCHING MIGHTY DUCKS 2&3 I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS AGAIN. ILY)
Everyone else was making cookies for Santa in the kitchen but it got to crowded and it stressed me out so I went to Hams sister, Via's, room. She was my age and we spoke every time we saw each other but she lived with her dad, this was her moms week.
I looked around in her room, I know it sounds wrong and like an invasion of privacy but me and her are comfortable enough with each other.
I sat in front of her little vanity set up and looked into the mirror in front of me, accidentally pointing out my insecurities.
People tell me looks are the least of my worries but I can't help to think that I have to be "pretty" for people to like me. And the people who don't like me don't think pretty enough.
"Oh. Hi Elena" I wipe my tear quickly and clear my throat. I look in the mirror to see the door behind me and saw Scotty closing it gently. "Hey smalls" I smile
"What'r you doing in here. Don't you wanna make cookies wi-" Scottys question fades as he gets closer to me. I look down avoiding eye contact but he managed to notice.
He kneels in front of me looking confused "were you...crying?" I look in the mirror. Shit, I had one of those tears on my other eye that you don't feel. I hate those. And my nose was red
I shake my head to avoid a pep talk about being overdramatic but fail. He wipes another tear which causes me to look at him. He puts a hand on top of my hand which was resting on my lap and smiles softly. He sits on the bed right next to the chair
"Tell me" he said, it sounded like more of a question. I shook my head again, softly. "You don't want to?" He whispered. "no" I mumbled. "That's okay, you don't have to El. But if you need to get something off your chest then I'm always here"
"Do you actually care?" I look up. Sometimes, my 'friends' have a habit of acting like they care then using my word against me. But not these guys, they never have.
"Are you kidding? Of course I care. We all care. I'd understand why you would think anyone else doesn't care but you've known the others for years and I know we just met 2 summers ago, but If I didn't care I wouldn't have asked" by the time he finished I was sobbing. He pulled me into a hug which made me feel better. On a even crazier note, why was I 3 years older then Scotty and just barely taller then him.
He gives really nice hugs. "I love you. Your the older sister I thought I'd never have" he whispers.
"I love you. If you wanna tell me anything you know I'm here too" I whisper back smiling. He let go and rested a hand on my shoulder. "You ready to go?" He asked nodding over to the door.
"In a minute" I responded. He smiled once more and left.
I went to the bathroom and threw water on my face then patted my face with a clean face towel inside one of the mini baskets.
I avoid the mirror and walk out to Benny.
The second he saw me his smile faded. I walked around the counter trying to avoid the chaos going on with the others who were still baking.
He held my hand that was resting on my side. "Why were you crying El?" FUCK. HOW DO PEOPLE KEEP NOTICING
"How did you notice" I ask looking up at him. "We've been best friends our whole life, I always notice hermosa" he rested a hand between my neck and my shoulder.
"No me siento hermosa. " I mumbled
"What?" He furrowed his eyebrows following my eyes. "You look as beautiful as ever, you always do. You might not see it but everyone here does." He plays with my fingers still following my eyes with his.
"If I was less pretty, would you have still been my best friend?" I ask feeling a new tear down my cheek
He immediately wipes both my eyes. "If you're a little over weight or under weight, it doesn't matter to me. Every time I see you in the mirror I think about how pretty you look with and without makeup. Listen to me, the heart is in the sole. If your 'darker' or 'lighter' your beautiful either way. Clear skin or not, I'll always love you"
WHAT?! DID YOU EXPECT ME TO NOT BE BALLING MY EYES OUT?! He pulled me into a hug my arms hugging his lower half, resting my head on his chest, he worded the name of my favorite song "El corason no tiene cara"
He rested his lips on my head. "Alright love birds a little help here!"
Benny chuckles. I recognize that chuckles way to much. He's crying.
I back up and hold his arm. "Are you crying?!" I giggle whipping my eyes
"Nah ur hair just poked my eye" he smiled and wiped his tear. I get on my tippie toes and kiss his cheek
He looks at me with a little smile and pink cheeks. His eyelashes were wet and they looked so long "that was the CRINGIEST thing ever" he laughed
"Alright stop crying or I'm gonna keep crying" I rolled my eyes and helped Bertram put the cookies in the oven
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Lo$ver | benny rodriguez
FanfictionBenny and Elena are best friends and have been since they were born. They never thought of each other as more then best friends, but the sandlot boys help benny and Elena figure out that they're in love with each other, since they were too blind to...
