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11. Locker room*

Sexual Content (ya'll live for this shit, enjoy!)
A I D E N
Same day, after school (5:46pm)

I didn't sleep a blink last night all I could think about how Lucas had said that he likes me and when I told him I loved him he ran. Literally. I know I shouldn't have said it, I knew he wasn't ready but I couldn't help it. It was on the tip of my tongue and it came out. But the worst thing is I blame myself for loving my friend in such a way but I can't help who I love.

I always knew from a young age that I didn't like girls and when I saw Lucas crying in the corner in primary school I knew that I had to do something. My mum always told me when you see someone crying or upset be there for them don't talk or speak to them just the feeling that someone is there with them is enough.

So that's what I did.

Ten years later were best friends or should I say more than that. I could have possibly ruined my only friendship I could have and I don't hate myself for loving him in such a way it's because how can you not fall for an Rossi.

Lucas acts tough and hard around people but I know him. I know the real him. I know that he is really shy, he is so damn innocent but not in that way innocent like an Angel. Like when someone gives him a compliment or gives him a nickname like I do, baby. He gets all shy and innocence and it makes my heart race when I see it. He's so cute and bright but I am glad that I know the real Lucas Rossi and not the Lucas Rossi that everyone else knows him as.

When he first got with Lyn I felt like my heart broke in two but I was happy for him I will always be happy for him even if I am not. The way his eyes lit up with he talked about Lyn and how sweet she is I could only him and nod but inside I was seething with jealously and hatred because I also know her.

The real her.

The worst thing about it all is that I had to sit and watch them from a far and I could feel my heart break in two but when it did beat for him.

He was never mine, but losing him to someone broke my heart.

I know he is scared so I am not mad for him for leaving, honestly. I was like him once scared and afraid but I was alone he isn't. I am here. I know of people he shouldn't come to me because I am the one he couldn't stop thinking about. So I am happy that Enzo that I know is gay is hopefully helping him because I assume it was him who helped Lucas built up the courage to come see me and tell me what he feels.

So here I am now standing outside the boys locker room leaning against the lockers as I wait on the lost people to come out. I found out earlier on that Lucas' coach had to leave early so he assigned Lucas who is captain to lock up the room so I am taking this chance to corner him. 

Jesus I sound like a lion waiting on it's prey.

I hear couple more people come out of the locker rooms as they give me a nod of acknowledgment when they seen me as they know I am waiting on Lucas. I didn't want to go in just in case but I know knowing on my look that someone is going to be in there when us two is there alone.

One more person came out of the door which I got excited quickly thinking it was Lucas but it wasn't. The guy looks up when he sees me and nods. "If your waiting on Lucas he's still getting change, he let everyone else take a shower before himself as he was locking up so he might be awhile" the guy said as I nodded my head at him with my blank expression still on my face.