His Lifeline | [2] ✔️

5. Powerful emotions*

Slight sexual content
L U C A S

Sunday came and went it was finally Monday morning as I stand at my carbon black Audi R8 outside of school as I sit up on the hood smoking a cig. I watched as people went past me to get to school, some hellos or fist pumps but none of them stayed. I didn't want to go in there.

I was afraid to go into that school. To see her. To see him.

I haven't stopped thinking about what I would do when I seen her but it's hard when you love her. I know I shouldn't anymore but love just can't get up and disappear it will take awhile for this feeling to go. I never knew how much it hurt me when I went to bed last night, I never cried so much in my life not ever since my eight birthday when I cried out for my sister to come home.

She didn't.

The fact that Lyn hasn't called me yet makes me know that all this is true. I can't... I won't go in there knowing that when I see her I will fall for her all over again.

Even though it's wrong but I can't help it.

Saturday night has brought a new light inside of me. This past year every slap she had given me and every insult she thrown my way. That's not a relationship, well I don't think that's how a relationship would go but how would I know she was my first ever one and my dad and my biological mum's one back fired.

Aiden on the other hand I haven't stopped thinking about him since yesterday morning when he helped me again in the spam of twelve hours, called me baby, kissed me on the forehead and just upped and left without an explanation, just a sorry and left.

He shouldn't have done that he was the one that had done it not me. He should've stayed and waited until I could form a word but he left without even telling me what the fuck that was.

I want to yell at him and Lyn for causing me all these powerful emotions inside of me that is banging on my chest to be unleashed.

I watch from a far as Lyn's black and pink Volkswagen that I had boughten her for her birthday two months ago pull in beside mine like it usually does as I turn away from her.

I can't deal with her right now but I know I have to.

I hear the slam of her door with her heels clicking off the pavement as she makes her way around the car to standing right in front of me. I look down at her with my shaded glasses on my face as I puff out a air of smoke.

"What do you want, Lyn" I spoke calmly trying to control my anger but it's hard when you know what I know she is capable off.

"Why didn't you call me yesterday, babe?" She pouted as she places her hand on my legs as I feel her hands on my skin through my ripped jeans on the knee cap.

These touches don't feel the same anymore.

"Go away" i muttered taking another puff of smoke keeping it in for a few seconds before exhaling out.

"What the fuck Lucas why?" She asked confused, retreating her hands from my legs.

I scoffed getting down from my good dropping the cig on the ground, putting it out. I turned back to her with a heated glare which she retaliates with her own. "Don't fucking say why Lyn. You know damn well what you did wrong and you know what hurts the most is that you looked me in the eyes while you did it to me and you didn't regret one thing when I begged you to fucking stop.

"So no Lyn I didn't call you yesterday because you spiked me and used me, fuck, you nearly raped me god Lyn do you have any idea how heartless you were throughout it" I spoke to her in a hard rasp tone so no one near could hear us but I wanted so badly to just shout and scream in her face for doing that to me.