my lovely heart

love is a myth

"So on three we go in there you distract the guy at the cash register and I'll steal the beer got it" says jackson "yeah" "123"
I walk into the store an walk to the guy at the cash register and say
"I never enjoy anything. I'm always waiting for whatever's next. I think everyone's like that. Living life in fast forward. Never stopping to enjoy the moment. Too busy trying to rush through everything so we can get on with what we are really supposed to be doing with our lives. I get these flashes of brilliant clarity where for a second I stop and I think Wait, this is it, this is my life. I better slow down and enjoy it because one day we're all going to end up in the ground and that'll be it, we'll be gone....... and that's why I think we should fuck" his eyes widen up really big and i could her jackson in the back trying to keep his laughter in but the cash register guy didn't care he couldn't keep his eyes off me "what" "well let's just skip through all the drunken section shit we have to look forward to and I'm mean you dont look like youll be any good at it any way but I don't wanna sit here and here you bumble fuck your way through it look we both want the same thing to go back to your room fuck and never see each other again" "well umm i " i see jackson leave the store out the corner of my and "sorry the offered expired you took too long bye" and walked out the store " "wait im.." said the cash register guy but I couldn't here the rest of what he said but I didn't really care "wow you are an expert at distracting" he said smiling really big "thank you" "let go to my house and drink this beer" "ok"
An hour and 10 beers later
"have you ever been in love"he asks me
"There are two kinds
of people in this world.
Hopeless romantics and realists.
Right.
A realist just sees that face
and packs it in with every other
pretty girl they've ever seen before.
The hopeless romantic
becomes convinced
that God put them on Earth
to be with that one person.
But there is no God,
and life is only as meaningful as you
fool yourself into thinking it is.
Guys who get laid
a lot are realists.
You should be listening.
Just avoid love at all costs.
That's my motto.
"Why don't you believe in God"
"Life is why" i say
"Any way have you ever been in love"
" Lydia Martin....she was the first love of my life but i didnt believe that i was good enough for her and I hated that so i flirted with other girls in her face even alison he best friend i just couldn't be....it hurt watching her hurt she told me she loved me the night I left her to go to Paris"
"Did you say it back?" "the most important things in life are always the hardest thing to say"
"Have you seen her since you got back" "nope" "do you still love her " "no......and that hurts to say" "you know your not as ad as everyone thinks you are"
"Thanks that means alot"
"No problem"