Faked for you

Chaiter fifteen

Ellie's POV.

That night I drove to Anna's place bawling my eyes out. Miles gave me what I wanted from the beginning and he only did it because he is a good man and felt bad for hurting me but this.. it's too much. I've only ever hurt this bad when my mother left me sitting beside her while she died in the middle of my living room and you can only imagine how much that hurt.

I spent hours crying in my bed before Anna came back from London. I texted her and told her I needed her and lucky for me she was already on her way back here. I couldn't go to my place alone. I needed my best friend.

"Elle?" Anna called out and I ran out in the living room to hug her. She dropped her arms around me as I cried into her shoulder. She didn't know exactly what had happened today but I was sure as hell going to tell her until I couldn't cry anymore. I was going to tell her how he mentioned growing old with me and how he even offered to have my kids. It hurts so much. I want the pain to go away and I don't know what to do. "Come on... tell me what happened" she whispered walking me to the couch where we laid down together eating ice cream she picked up before coming here while I went on for about an hour on how he did everything I dreamed of a man doing for me and how he did all of it out of guilt.

"So I told him to take me back... it hurt so fucking back and I didn't know what else to do" I shrug as she pushes me away before her mouth falls.

"So he offered you a house, kids and a future with him and you said no?!"

"Yeah but he just felt guilty"

"Elle!! Not one man on earth would buy a fucking land and offer all that shit he offered you just because he feels guilty! A man would do that if he loved an incredibly stubborn woman! Have you even met men in real life? No man is like Miles Scott and I swear to god if you let him go then you'll regret it for the rest of your life!"

Then it hit me. She was right. Miles wasn't a man who would do all that out of guilt and he certainly wasn't easy to become friends with but somehow he let me in his life. He let me in the day he told me about his dad, the night he carried me to bed after I had gotten drunk and the night he held me while I had a anxiety attack after losing my job. Miles is trying and I didn't even try to see what he must have been thinking or what he was feeling. I was protecting myself from feeling that hurt he made me feel again and now I have to find him because if I don't Anna will be right. I will regret it forever.

I broke all the speed limits to get to Miles apartment and once I was up there I grabbed my phone and used my camera to check how I looked, I looked like I had just cried for five hours. It will have to be enough because I can't wait any longer. I knocked on the door and only two minutes later he opened it and there he was... shirtless with messy curly hair that's slightly damp. He must have taken a shower, Shit that's going to make this a lot harder.

"Ellie?" He groaned squinting his eyes making sure he saw me right.

"I think... I think I can love you too..." I smile before his smirk that I fell for reappears on his lips. He stepped towards me and grabbed my waist pulling me into his chest before my heart starting burning along with my mouth practically drooling. His lips crashed on to mine and then I knew exactly where I was, I was home.

He stepped backwards pulling me with him before kicking the door shut with his foot. His hands never left my face as he devoured my mouth with his. I've kissed a lot of men in my life but holy shit this was different. His hands trailed down to my thighs picking me up wrapping my legs around his torso before carrying me to his bedroom where he set me down on his bed. He left my lips for a second to lift my shirt up over my head slowly giving me time to say no but he must have been insane and unaware of how much he turned me for me to say no.

"You're so beautiful..." he whispered running his fingertips over my bare chest not at all shocked that I hadn't been wearing a bra under my thin pajama shirt. Before I left I didn't even bother changing because in that moment I needed exactly what was happening right now. He obviously didn't mind considering what I noticed almost right away when he laid me on his bed.

"Please hurry" I whisper as he slowly slides my shorts down. I wanted him inside me and he was taking too long to do that. I wanted him so bad it wasn't fair that he was allowed to tease me like this.

"Relax sunshine, we've got all night" he smirks before laying a kiss on my forehead and tugging my shorts down along with my underwear. I was naked and he got to keep his boxers on, It wasn't fair, I felt way too exposed compared to him.

"Take them off" I tug his boxers down before he chuckles to himself and climbs on top of me before devouring my mouth with his once again.

"We fit so perfectly, don't we?" He mumbled in between kissing me. I nod as I feel him reach over to his nightstand and grab a condom but I take it out of his hand and toss it aside.

"I'm on the pill" He smirks before I feel him enter his way inside me. I arched my back curving my breasts into him until he was fully inside me. Jesus Christ that feels good. He spent a lot of time kissing my collar bone and I'm pretty certain he left a hickey but I didn't care. For all I care he could leave marks all over my body because this is what counts. The moment where his eyes are locked on mine while he thrusts so deep into my I can't keep quiet. The moment I have to clutch on to his bedsheets to contain myself from screaming while my body takes over my every movement.

"I fucking love you" he groans before he spills into me. His body relaxes on mine while I run my nails up and down his spine. Once we're down from our high he lifts himself off me and flips me over on my knees.

"What are you doing?" I squeak.

"I'm not done with you yet, sunshine..." he lays a kiss on my lower back before taking me from all the different positions all night I never even knew existed. After that I could even move and neither could he.

We spent a good two hours laying there in silence as he ran his fingers up and down my hip and up the curve of my waist. This was by far the best night of my life and it will be incredibly hard to top it. Once I saw he was asleep I curled my bare body against his and allowed myself to sleep feeling as though my life was complete. I love this man with my whole heart and I'm terrified to go through losing him again so I will do everything in my power to not let him slip out of my fingers because I'm not sure what I would do if I had to live without him.