Faked for you

Chapter twenty one

Ellie's POV.

It's been exactly two months since I left Miles apartment. I started counting last week each day that goes by without talking or even getting a glance at Miles. Each day was just as hard as the first because I knew it would take a long time for me to get over him or get to the point of forgiveness. Tomorrow night is Christmas Eve and I remember being so excited to finally have someone special to spend it with but I was lucky enough for Anna and her boyfriend to invite me over with them for dinner so I'm not super lonely. I have been working at the office every day all day because it's the only thing that has been distracting enough to get my mind off crying over Miles.

"So I have a question to ask you Anna and in front of well... Ellie so here goes nothing" nick gets on his knee and pulls out a ring. Anna's face goes pink and she just starting crying "will you marry me Lilianna?" I'm not sure how many people know but lilianna is Anna's real name but she prefers Anna the same way I prefer Ellie. I have always thought Lilianna is a beautiful name though.

"Yes!" She screams jumping in nicks arms before sliding the ring on. I wipe away a tiny tear that tried to seep its way down my cheek before hugging my best friend.

"Congratulations" I smile as she stares at the ring "love you" I say as she pulls me back into a hug.

"Oh shit wait!" Anna shouts before running to her bedroom and coming back out with a box. "This is for you Elle... it's from Miles" I smile and set my wine down before walking in Anna's bedroom and opening the box in private because I already know I'm going to cry.

When I lifted the lid I read the note and smiled from ear to ear "all your favorite books in one place" i read before lifting the kindle out of the package. I turned it on and all of my favorite books I told Miles about one of the first nights we hung out was on there for me. I looked down at my gold bracelet turning it over and reading what Miles had carved in. And now I'm crying on Christmas Eve.

It's been another month and last night I had gotten a temporary job offer in Boston for the next three months, I leave next month so I have plenty of time to pack. would love there and Vance would pay for my apartment for the three months and once three months is up I go back to the next office here. I told them yes because the only thing keeping me in Seattle was Anna but she was too busy planning her wedding and finding a new job.

I'm packing the last of my things before leaving for Boston tomorrow. I am just as excited as I am nervous. I'm finding myself while me and Miles are whatever we are and well it does feel amazing to be on my own I miss him more then I ever have. I wonder if he has been working on the house of if he has completely given up on that?

I took my white sundress off the hook and seriously considered throwing it out. I still haven't put it on since I bought it but it's so beautiful to throw away. I know for a fact that Miles would fall in love with me all over again if he saw me in this dress.

If he even loves me anymore considering I haven't seen him in four months. I haven't even gotten a text or anything since he gave me my kindle which was actually the first thing I packed. I'm in love with it and it was the second best gift I've ever gotten. I have worn my bracelet every single day since leaving Miles and it hasn't been as much as a reminder of him making me upset, when I look at it I just remember that day he showed me around his hometown and told me the story about his father building his mothers home to show how much he loved her. That's what he tried doing with me but things got in the way.

I folded the dress and set it in my suitcase before closing it and taking one last look around my apartment. "I will see you in three months when I come back" I said to my apartment before rolling my suitcase out to my car. Anna drove me to the airport and texted me the entire flight to Boston. I'm not sure Miles even knows I am going to Boston but I do know that he talks to Anna every once and awhile about me. He asks her how I'm doing and afterwards she tells me how much he misses me for him. She hasn't in awhile so I wonder maybe he has moved on?

It's been seven months since I last heard from Miles and three months since I've seen Anna. I was coming home from Boston today and god my entire time there was amazing. I walked around Boston on FaceTime with Anna while she tried on wedding dresses and we finally chose a gorgeous ball gown for her. While she waited for someone I showed her every single place I visited and I sent her endless pictures. She was jealous but I was there for work and nothing more.

I went on a date one night but when he checked out our waitresses ass the entire time I took that as a sign that this wasn't going to end in the way Miles ended our date nights. I missed him so fucking much I hated it. I hated how much I missed the smell of his hair or the texture of his stomach under my fingers nails or how he would draw on my back to help me fall asleep. I missed it all.

When I got to Anna's apartment we jumped in each other's arms and hugged for probably an hour before drinking up our wine. I never even went home before seeing Anna because her place was on my way home so I figured I'd stop there and have some wine with her before going home.

"How was your flight?" She curled up next to me. Miles always made fun of us for being so close but we're honestly like sisters and I would do anything for Anna.

"Boring" I sigh sipping from my glass. "Have you heard anything from Miles?"

"No, sorry sweetie" she sighs.

"It's okay, I was just thinking about him and what he was up too"

"Why don't you find out?" she nudges my shoulder smiling and just that thought fills my stomach up with butterflies.

"I don't know..."

"He misses you, Ellie... go see him" I smile and grab something out of my suitcase before running to her bedroom and shutting the door. "What are you doing?!" She yells.

"I have to change!"