Stay Strong, Never Surrender

No hard feelings right? Wrong.

I woke up with a puzzled look on my face as I see a note on the side of my table.

" Your funny when your drunk, J"

I blush as last nights memory comes slowly back and haunts me. Great! I definitely boosted his ego last night. Not that he needed much of an ego boost. Then suddenly a worry wave rushed through me, last night I told him to sleep with me, that means that last night I was cuddling into Jasper.

Being drunk is definitely NOT worth it!

I start packing my stuff as we leave to go back tomorrow and looking at the state of my room I'm probably going to leave 100 things behind. Our last day in Spain. I know I don't want to go back, Spain was now my most favourite place in the world.

That day I was sitting on a beach bed trying tan my self and I looked up to the warm rays of sunlight hitting my face. It was refreshing. I needed to turn a new leaf in my life I thought. I needed to have more trust in Japer cause I know now that he truly likes me. I can't help but feel the tiniest part of my brain saying that he still is capable to ruin me, but I nudge that thought away. I want to be optimistic.

On the plane back I've never felt better. My excitement doesn't dim, even when we have a little turbulence on the flight. Once we reached home I left my heap of laundry in a pile near the door and my suitcase at the side of my bed. I changed into my black leggings and a hoodie, choosing comfort over fashion. I run downstairs to see poppy and Rosie still sleeping. I guess even jet leg wasn't going to stop me today.

I felt like I was on top of the world.

I went to my get running shoes ready to go for a little run when mum stopped me.

"Where you going honey?"

"I felt like going for a run. I'll be back in 10 minutes ok?"

Behind mum, Poppy is walking up the stairs to go to her bed.

"Or to meet lover boy." She yawns

"No! I'm going for a run that's all. Thankfully I'm feeling very generous and letting you off for that one poppy." I say turning bright red.

"Yeah yeah. Whatever, goodnight." She says without blinking twice.

"Ok then. Have a good 'run' "Mum says mimicking speech marks.

"Mum!"

She shrugs and I walk out. I start running down our path way into a park next to our house.

It has a huge field with beautiful flowers, I admire the way each flower vibrantly shines when a drop of sunlight reaches their petals.

As I keep running I see some kids, they looked like they were 6 year olds, they were playing with the swings and slides. I used to love going on the swings, dad would always push me until I felt like I was flying.

I keep running until I've went round the whole park three times. I'm absolutely knackered so I sit down under the shade of a tree. I pull out my phone which seems to have a message.

Missing you so much babe! I'm like a fish without water. How was the trip back?
C

I smile. Connor is just so cheesy sometimes. I quickly send back a smiley emoji and tell him it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be.

I pull out my earphones from my pocket which are always there for emergencies and listen to music.Just when I'm about doze off under the sun I hear laughter. High pitched, annoying laughter which sounds like a siren. Startled I get up and see straight, long blonde hair, ocean-blue eyes, perfectly shaped and filled eyebrows and an annoying smirk, my eyes take some time to adjust to the effortlessly beautiful queen in front of me. The anger inside me starts to churn in my stomach.

"Well, well, well, look who I've found. Miss Boyfriend-stealer."

"Diana" I say trying to keep calm.

"You know, you look so innocent. But I always had the gut instinct that you were evil. I mean the way you just read and stay by yourself, I wouldn't be surprised that all this time you've been planning to murder someone."

"Yeah, maybe I was." I mumble with clenched fists.

"And remember when you had that pale almost like pastry skin and you used to get those huge spots. What did they call you again - ugh- what was it? Oh yeah! Red face! Red, I always liked that colour."

"Only you called me that. But I guess now we've kind of swapped cause you need the make up and I don't. Maybe I should call you red face now or maybe orange face, that fake tan really isn't doing it for your face is it?" I say with a sickly sweet tone to my voice.

I see her jaw clench as she tries to respond without completely breaking her cool look.

"I just wanted to ask that there's no hard feelings right?" Her voice strains so much so that I see a vein pop out from her throat.

"Uh sure?" I say looking around for a camera or something. I was pretty sure this was a prank.

"Look I know I haven't exactly been -nice- to you but I think we should be -er- friends. Just cause I feel bad about saying those stuff to you and I think Jasper wasn't ever really into me so I guess I was jealous or something." She fiddles with her hair and talks directly to a tree behind me.

I raise an eyebrow.

"What do you want?" I snap

"What do you mean?" She says almost annoyed that I reacted like that.

" I mean, what do you want from me. One second your acting like you hate my guts and throwing insults like you life depended on it and the next second you've become some kind of goddess of world peace. There can only be one reason why you want to be my friend and that's cause you want something from me. So what is it?" I say hastily.

"You are way too smart. Fine. I want something from you. I want you to help me in return for my forgiveness." I snort but she ignores me and continues.

"I want you to help me. Be my friend. Like an actual friend. I've had enough of people acting around me, telling me I'm beautiful and saying that my lipgloss really matches my face today. I've had enough of my mum telling me that I should study more or see my dad with that bitch in my house. Ive had enough of not actually being able to talk to anyone. I've had enough full stop." She slags her shoulders and my hand urges to pat her back.

Sympathy rushes into me. I was here at some point to, I know how much she needs a friend. Like how I had Connor, she needed someone. But why me?

"But why do you want me to be your friend? I mean out of everyone, why me?"

She looks at me with pleading eyes.

"Your the only one who actually cares, who has listened to me before, who actually knows about me."

"Fine." I sigh. She looks up with a surprised look on her face. Like a child who just opened the presents on Christmas Day.

She runs up to hug me and I awkwardly let her arms go around me.

"Thanks so much Em." We stood there for a while talking about favourite movies and just general girl gossip until my mum texted me to ask if I wanted to be a human and eat. Before I went back home we exchanged numbers.

"I'll see you around then Diana." I say smiling. I walk back home and let out my hair from its high pony tail so that the breeze could just run through it.