I typed a text that said "I'm not going anywhere"
Then cried for three hours
Because you needed me in that moment
I was supposed to save you
But all I could think about
Was how desperately I wanted to end it all
And how selfish of me to think that
When you were the one crumbling
I had already fallen apart
My turn was over
You had no idea the burdens I was carrying
And I had no idea I was all you had left
I wanted to be the one save you
But what I wanted more was to save myself
I could not end it all for me
And still save you
So I had to choose
It was you
I will always choose saving you
Over killing me
YOU ARE READING
Here I Lay
ŞiirA collection of poems that allows you to feel what I felt during different times in my life
