Gambling With Life

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'its finally arrived' looking at the plaque, jaylahs eyes watered. 'i need to go find the men' holding the plaque to her chest, jaylah walked out of her room. Finding Rey, Tyson and emit at the table, jaylah spoke "guys.." all men looked directly at jaylah. Emit spotting the plaque, he swallowed hard "it finally arrived" "I'd love to see it" jaylah pulled it away from her chest and turned it around. "Fuck" emit shook his head as his eyes watered "I think it's only right that you join me. All of you, if you want to" seeing all men nod, they all stood up. "We need to find Christophe and Zaire" "probably the gym room". Jaylah turned the plaque back around and kept it to her chest. Bronx exiting the office, he looked down the hall as jaylah, emit, Tyson and Rey walked down. Seeing jaylah holding something, Bronx took a deep breath 'its the plaque for kalems grave'.
"Jaylah. Men" "boss" "is that.." "kalems plaque. We are going to find Christophe and Zaire" Bronx showed a slight nod as jaylah kept walking. 'i need to show these guys'.
Entering the gym, jaylah looked around. "Zaire and Christophe?" "Jlee" Zaire put the weights down and looked at jaylah, just like Christophe "kalems plaque?" "Yeah.. do you want to join us?" "Yeah we are" jaylah nodded. 'this won't be easy for any of us but sticking together is the right thing to do'.
All six slowly walked down to kalems grave. Seeing the grass going over where he is buried, jaylah took a deep breath. "do we dig it down?" "About an inch should be perfect. The ground will harden around it" jaylah showed a slight nod. "I will go get a shovel" jaylah stared at the ground as she held the plaque to her chest. "can I see kalems plaque?" Jaylah nodded as she had a lump in her throat. Turning the plaque around, jaylah showed Zaire and Christophe. Seeing both men put their heads down, jaylah let the tears fall. "He had some shit taste in music" "shit jokes" "and that fucking goofy grin, whenever he was up to no good" "those jokes were terrible" jaylah let a small laugh slip as tears streamed down her face "never slept in either. always waking our asses up" "he made a good breakfast though" "and could mix a drink" "offered good advice even if he was poking me while he did it" the men laughed "cheated in poker too" "you cheat" "bullshit, you are just crap" "you were out before I was" "you cheated" "nah I didnt cheat. Just spiked your drinks" "argh, he used to do it all the damn time. Giving us triples and shit" everyone chuckled "yep. I think we have all done it" Bronx walked down the back to see everyone laughing. Walking closer he was curious as to why they are laughing. "Nuh he was always running around annoying everyone" "oh you arent wrong" "just letting you know he's there" "I could smell him" Bronx internally grinned "you could smell your own stinky ass" "oh bullshit, it wasn't me" "yeah I can smell it now".
Rey dug down an inch then stepped back. With watery eyes, jaylah looked at emit. "Do you.." emit shook his head no "Nuh. I can't" jaylah looked down at the plaque then at the grave. Slowly walking towards it, she let the tears fall. Bending down, jaylah kissed the plaque and gently placed it down making all the men tear up. "fuck" jaylah knelt down as she started picking up the dirt and put it around it. One by one the men broke out in tears and spoke before walking off leaving jaylah to cry alone. 'i wish you were here kalem. It's been so hard. It's not the same without you in person. I love you a ton' patting down the dirt around his plaque, Bronx moved up beside her. Looking at the plaque then at jaylah as she never raised her head, he sat down and put his arms around her. He knows it's hard for her. It broke the men, it's definitely broken her. A lot has broken her and she won't speak up. It's concerning. 'i don't want to do this anymore. I just want to be at peace. I want to rid of this pain. I have suffered enough' as Bronx held jaylah to his chest, jaylah stayed still. Frozen and not being able to move, her eyes stayed on the plaque. "Boss" "what is it?" "Nicole and Jackson are here" 'shit this is not what jaylah needs right now' jaylah moved from Bronxs hold and stood up. Looking at kalems grave, jaylah then walked off. "Jaylah wait. you don't have to, if you aren't ready" jaylah kept walking with out saying a word which made Bronx only more concerned.
Entering the house, the men all looked at jaylah as her cheeks were stained with tears. "jaylah" "Jackson. Congratulations to you and Nicole" Jackson had a proud look on his face "thanks. Nicole and Jasmina are in the kitchen with Sally" jaylah showed a slight nod "thanks" jaylah walked to the kitchen and stepped in. Sally immediately turned her attention to jaylah with worry. "Nicole" Nicole turned. Seeing Nicole hold her baby, jaylahs face softened "congratulations. You look incredible" "thanks. Hard day?" "We put kalems plaque on" Nicole nodded "was it how you wanted?" "Perfect for him" jaylah sat down with mixed emotions but this isn't about her. "Bronx was right. Your cheeks and nose" "and my eyes but she is lazy. Just sleeps all the time" jaylah grinned "takes after her dad then?" Nicole chuckled "yep". "how was the birth?" "Fourteen hours but worth every bit. Would you like to hold her?" "I'd love too" Nicole gently passed jasmina to jaylah "she's gorgeous just like you" "yeah I will take that" jaylah internally grinned "does she feed well?" "Very. Not a problem with latching on at all" "already independent like her mom" "she is". jaylah showed a slight nod "I.. I have something for her" "jaylah, you didn't need to get anything" "I wanted to" jaylah passed jasmina back "I will be back in a moment" Nicole grinned "for more cuddles?" "Definitely". Exiting the kitchen, Bronx and Jackson looked at jaylah as she walked off, not sure how she is.
Finding the bag, jaylah walked back out and into the kitchen. "jaylah?" "It's for both of you" jaylah sat down and Nicole passed her straight back to jaylah. Holding Jasmina in her arms as she slept, Nicole opened the bag. Seeing two gift boxes, Nicole grabbed them out as Bronx and Jackson walked in. Seeing jaylah hold Jasmina, Bronx had mixed emotions but held it in.
When Nicole opened the first gift box, her eyes watered "this is.. this is gorgeous" Nicole looked at the bracelet that said Nicole with half a heart on the side and a small diamond in the middle. Putting it on her wrist, Nicole then picked up the other gift box. Seeing a baby bracelet with Jasmina on it and the other half of the heart and a diamond in it, Nicole couldn't believe her eyes. 'this wouldn't have been cheap. None of them but they mean the world to me' Nicole gently grabbed jasminas wrist and put the bracelet on before standing up and wrapped her arms around jaylah "these bracelets are absolutely beautiful. I can't thank you enough jaylah" jaylahs heart stung. She is holding a baby after losing hers. She didn't have a choice but she does have a choice to do something kind. "I'm glad you like them. I thought it would be something special for you both" Nicole pulled away and sat back down again "the gifts are usually only for the baby. It's lovely that you thought of me too" "of course" seeing Jasmina open her eyes as she let out a cry, Nicole spoke "it is that time to feed her" jaylah nodded as she handed Jasmina back. 'she definitely has Nicole's eyes. "I will let you feed her privately" jaylah stood up and walked to her room. Closing the door, jaylah rested her back against it as tears travelled down her cheeks. 'im thrilled for them. They deserve happiness. They deserve to have another beautiful child but this is hard. Really hard' jaylah slid her back down the door as she moved to sit down. Feeling defeated, jaylah closed her eyes.
'why is my life unfair?. What did I do to deserve all this hurt and pain?. Am I not supposed to be happy?. Am I being selfish by continuing to live? Am I bringing everyone down when their lives could be full of happiness? Everything bad has surrounded me from the crap with my uncle, attacks, the stuff with Bronx and Lucian. Kalem dying and me.. me losing our baby. It was my fault for being so stubborn, it was my fault for fighting them. I should've just been obedient.