Gambling With Life

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"why are you out here on your own?" "I want to be" "everyone on your case?" "Well those that speak to me yeah. Everyone knows my fucking business because vex couldn't keep his fucking mouth shut" "you two are.." "don't you say close" "well you were" "he broke my trust for his boss. Fuck that shit" feeling another slight pain, jaylah took a deep breath "are you alright?" "Dandy" "something physically wrong?" "probably from holding my bladder for two days" "shit" "should've done it on his fucking floor" "you completely destroyed the bosses room" "I don't care. He's been a cunt" "he's our boss" "so. He wouldn't be a boss without his men would he" Otto showed a slight nod "I can see there's a lot of beef.." "yep" "it all started with kalem" "wasn't kalems fault" "no. What he said" "yep then I was stupid and believed his bullshit. Him and Lucian. What fucking type of brother is that..pfft would prefer that dumb ass Elliot" Otto chuckled "Lucian doesnt know who you are. Those men can be tough as nails" "now that's bullshit. both of them were emotional" "and you?" "When I thought of my brother" "kalem?" "Yep. He was always around to guide me, to help me, kick my ass in a roundabout sort of way. made me laugh, cared for me just like I did with him. He was a true brother. He never hurt me. Yelled my name around the house yes, but that was worry" Otto laughed "I heard it many times" jaylah nodded "I don't want to be controlled anymore, I don't want to feel like I am trapped, I hate that people talk about my business and get in my face. It's just.. I have hit my point and without kalem..it makes it so much harder" "he's always with you jaylah, you just have to remember what he would say to you" jaylah showed a slight nod "he'd tell me I don't deserve this shit" "you don't" jaylah looked at Otto "I know that. I have been dealt a shit fucking hand and all I want to do is be happy but how can I do that when I kept having curve balls thrown my way?" "Curve with them" "yeah.. it's not that easy" "I understand". Seeing Lucian walk down, jaylah turned her eyes "listening to music?" "His shit" Otto chuckled "why listen to it?" "He liked it and I suppose it helps. He would turn it up in the car all the damn time just to annoy me I swear" "that's what family does" "yep always kept me going though". 'she knows I'm here' "jaylah" "yep" "we should talk" "I will leave you to it" 'please dont' Otto stood up and walked away and Lucian sat down. "I didn't deal with that right. I know you are angry at the world right now but it's not the way you should be" "how should I be Lucian?" "Calm and relaxed" jaylah rolled her eyes "calm and relaxed. How am I supposed to do that?. My life is fucked up. From lies and deceit to pain and the list just never ends" Lucian looked at kalems grave then back to jaylah as she sat picking the grass. "He was your closest mate" "brother and best friend. He has always supported me, never hurt me and always cared for me just like I did with him. They say the good die young. He was a treasure to this world and no one gave a fuck" "they did jaylah" "oh yeah?" "Everyone" "No. Kalem didn't even speak to half of these men like I don't. I don't even fucking like them. They are uptight assholes" feeling another slight pain, jaylah moved. "Something wrong?" "Many things" "then speak" "oh I have but does anyone fucking listen" jaylah shook her head "we reacted badly jaylah, it's the way we work but our intention wasn't to hurt you, it was to make you talk" "I do fucking talk" "you are angry at the world" "shouldn't I be?" "Not to mention you are carrying" "that's my decision" "it's both of yours" "if I decide to have the baby, I will" "Bronx doesn't want you aborting it" "like I care. Fucking lying to me, talking down to me, grabbing me, oh and ties me up. Yeah that's fucking Wonderful. Not even uncle rayal would tie me up. Belt me maybe not tie me up though. You know what, I hate this place. People in my fucking face all the damn time, knowing my fucking business. Telling me I'm fucking selfish and heartless. Nah fuck that shit" Lucian took a deep breath "you are" "heartless or selfish?" "Both" "alright" "you put your life and the babies on the line to be stubborn, you didn't tell Bronx, you had a go at him for wanting to know.." "no. You two tied me up. You two did it. Maybe I am stubborn, there's nothing wrong with it and as for not telling him, I wasn't fucking ready" "yet you told the men" "yep. Zaire bought the tests and Christophe and vex walked in while they say on the basin" "and that's fair to Bronx how?" "He wasnt there. It was at the other house. I don't like what either of you did" Lucian put his head down "we fucked up. You need to forgive us jaylah" "need to?" "Yes. I'm your brother and he is your partner" "ex And you don't know me" "you won't allow me to" "no. From the moment we met you threw your boss shit at me. Questioning me and my life, questioning my family, telling them that they can't be near me. I'm not your fucking worker, I am supposed to be your sister. See that's your fucking problem. Both of you actually. This boss shit you have got going on, is fucking ridiculous. As I said to Otto. You wouldn't be a fucking boss without your men" lucian put his head down "we used to be close" "that was a long time ago when our parents were actually alive and before our lives were turned to shit. Now I'm just some bitch carrying and people expect me to bow down to them and you are a boss and think your shit doesn't fucking stink" jaylah stood up "jaylah.." "I'm going to eat" jaylah walked off, leaving Lucian at kalems grave. 'shes angry at everything and everyone. This will be hard'.
Entering the house, jaylah walked straight past Sally and Bronx as they stood in the hallway and walked to the kitchen. "Water and food" "coffee and cake" "what?" "A burger" Zaire stood up and put his hand on jaylahs shoulder "you alright?" "Nuh. I'm over the bullshit Zaire" "I know" Zaire stood back as he watched jaylah make a burger. Seeing her tense, he spoke "jaylah is there something wrong?" "No, I'm fine" Zaires not believing it. Something is definitely wrong. Jaylah moved to the table and sat down. "Big enough" "full of salad" "and a large chunk of meat" "evens it out" Zaire chuckled. Eating in silence, Sally entered the kitchen. "is there anything you need jaylah?" "No thanks" Sally looked at Zaire then back to jaylah with worry. Turning her eyes away from her, jaylah internally groaned 'why, so she can report it back to Bronx. Pfft' "I'm going to walk this off" "you should.. alright I will join you" "on the treadmill" Zaire nodded. Taking her dishes to the sink, jaylah quickly washed them then left the kitchen. "You sure you don't want to rest?" "No I will tire myself down then sleep all afternoon and night" "and miss dinner?" "Maybe but I have already had a large bowl of pasta and a burger" "yeah but you were eating five meals a day" "so I will eat a banana before bed" "deal".
Entering the gym room, jaylah moved straight to one of the treadmills, while Zaire hopped on another.
'what the fuck is she doing in here?' vex looked at jaylah and Zaire. 'she has just been in a room for two days tied up and she's pregnant' vex looked at Evan and evan shook his head. Evan and Vince haven't really had much to do with her but they know what's happened. Everyone knows what's happening. Vex kept his eyes on her. Seeing her only walk the treadmill, he relaxed. He knows shes angry and stressed. He also knows he won't get back what they had. He betrayed her and jaylah doesnt like being betrayed, she has dealt with enough. She may speak to him but it won't be like it was. 'kalem will be pissed at me and whoever else has hurt her'.
When Lucian walked back inside, he immediately looked at Bronx. "I better head back to my men" "yeah I understand" "if there's any changes, can you let me know?" Bronx showed a slight nod as he put his hand out and lucian shook it.