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THURSDAY

Kristen rolled out of bed Thursday morning, her eyes still puffy from crying herself to sleep the night before. Almost every part of her told her not to go back, but that little voice inside her head that causes her to make bad decisions told her to go. So into the shower she went, burning her skin and washing her tear stained face. After she got out, she didn't even bother putting on make up, she just pulled on jeans, a sweatshirt and converse then walked out the door. Her feet were so heavy she barely even made it into the cab. But the moment she made it and he drove off, she regretted it. What was she supposed to say when they saw each other?? Or would he even show up? Did he leave overnight and tell the whole media about what happened? Would they be exposed?
Calm down, she told herself. Bill was going to be there and she would just have to get over herself.
Kristen inhaled deeply, and walked in to studio 8h. There he was. Standing about 10 feet away from her talking to Lorne. And he was looking at her!! Wait, but that meant she was looking at him! She stared at the floor, she could feel her heartbeat in her head.
"Kristen get over here!" Lorne said motioning her over. She looked up and slowly walked over.
"We gotta practice this monologue you're gonna be in!" He said. Kristen quickly looked at Bill and then back to Lorne.
"Got any ideas?" Her voice shook like an earthquake. She could barely even breathe.
"Bill was telling me Monday, he wanted you guys to sing something together since he has never sang before on this show." Lorne said sophisticatedly. Kristen knew Bills plans had changed since then.
"Sure..."she managed. Lorne creased his eyebrows.
"If you don't mind, Kristen; I have to speak to Bill privately in my office." He said. Kristen nodded and sighed.
Lorne led Bill down the hall and into his office. They sat down and he looked at Bill sternly.
"What the hell is going on?" He asked.
"With what?" Bill stammered.
"Don't fool me son!" Lorne said. Bill looked down, he couldn't lie to Lorne,nor did he want to.
"On Tuesday night, Kristen and I drank too much...and we kissed. We didn't get naked...we just kissed and slept on the floor together. She told me to forget it, but that's utterly impossible,god Lorne, I can't go a second without tasting her like blood spilling into my mouth. So then...last night I showed up at her hotel...I told her I loved her. And said, I quote her on it 'go fuck your wife Bill'..." It all came out and a single tear rolled down his cheek. Lorne looked at Bill and nodded slowly.
"Would you die for her?" He asked. Bill didn't even hesitate.
"Yes."
"She loves you too, I hope you know that. Kristen just struggles expressing it. You can't let this get in the way of you guys-you can't." Lorne said.
"How do I fix this?" Bill pleaded.
"I'm going to call seth." Lorne nodded. "I'm gonna get you guys on the show tonight. But for today, just rehearse, she'll hang out with the girls, you hang with the boys. But tonight, both of you will get a call from seth." Lorne said.
Bill nodded slowly, he was willing to try everything he could to fix this. Anything if it meant Kristen in his arms again.

Sure enough; around seven thirty, they both got a call from Seth telling them to meet him in his new office at late night. Kristen thought she was going to be alone. She thought it would be a great escape from Bill, but little she know she was running straight toward the thing that broke her.
It will Bill who got their first, he walked in and him and Seth embraced tightly.
"Hey man, how have you been?" Bill beamed.
"It's been okay, different, but okay. Nothing like the good ol update desk." Seth returned the bittersweet smile. Kristen walked in and the froze completely at the sight of Bill.
"Bill..." She whispered. Then she returned back to earth and out of her trance. "Seth! I've missed you!"
She threw her arms around his neck and squeezed him. Bill couldn't help but to feel jealous she was in another mans arms.
"You guys are going to appear on the show together tonight...let me lead you to your separate dressing rooms." Seth opened the door and led them down a hall showing them two dressing rooms. "Both of your outfits are laid out in there, then you can come out and get your makeup done...kristen." Seth joked. Both Bill and Kristen laughed nervously. They said their thank you's and then escaped into the rooms.
Bill was so upset. Kristen seemed horrified at the sight of him. He's never going to make this right, he-
A scrap of paper was slipped under his door. He ran to it and picked it up. It was the adventureland Polaroid him and Kristen took on set! He was trying to kiss her and she was laughing and pulling away. His eyes swelled up with tears and then he noticed writing on the back. It read simply; I'm sorry Bill, so sorry.
For a moment, his heart took flight. Does this mean she loves him? Or is she apologizing for what she said and also for leaving him forever? He put on his suit and tried to figure her out so much. He spent a great deal of time trying to figure out the beautiful soul of Kristen. To distract himself he sat on the floor and read, trying not to wrinkle his suit. It must've been a while because there was a knock on his door.
"Five minutes." They said. He jumped up and exited his room.
And there was Kristen; hair done, make up done perfectly to bring out all of her beautiful features, and wearing this tremendously elegant black dress.
NOBODY had ever looked so beautiful in a dress.
Then they both realized he was staring and his mouth was open.
"You look nice." Bill blurted clumsily.
"Alright, we're actors, we can do this. Just act the way we used to be." Kristen said coldly. Before he could respond, she walked off, heals clicking and all. He ran beside her just as Seth announced their names. The audience cheered and Seth came over to give them both a quick hug and then lead them to their seats.
"Hi!" He cried, laughing.
"Hey!" Bill retorted laughing as well.
"Look at this! You've got your own talk show!" Kristen exclaimed with a perfect fake smile.
"Yeah! So how have you guys been?" Seth exhaled. Kristen and Bill looked at each other.
"Great!" Kristen spoke. "Awesome!"
"Me and Alexi saw the Skeleton twins last night...wow!" Seth exclaimed. Bill and Kristen cracked up.
"I don't know how to react if your only response was wow!" Bill chuckled.
"No! It was very good, very heavy." Seth cleared up his previous statement.
"Yeah, it was very sad and people thought it was a comedy coming from me and Kristen ya know?" Bill said. Seth and Kristen nodded.
"I thought so too! I was sitting down with my popcorn like yay can't wait to watch a funny Bill and Kris movie, and then BAM Bills slicin himself!" Seth joked. Everyone laughed.
"That was pretty tough," Bill shrugged among the laughter.
"Now, I've heard many people compare Milo to Stefon-" Seth gestured the Stefon nesting doll on his desk.
"Aw look at that!" Bill cooed.
"So cute." Kristen smirked.
"Yeah not at all. They're just both gay, that's it." Bill said.
"I see a little type casting going on." Kristen pretend laughed trying to act "like they used to".
"Yeah! I was thinking about that the other day like man Bills really good at being the gay guy!" Seth exclaimed laughing. Bill put his hands up.
"Well!?" He laughed.
"Speaking of, I've had some very fond memories with the two of you at the update desk." Seth smiled sweetly.
"Yeah definately!" Bill nodded.
"Especially Rebecca Larue." Kristen smirked sexily. Bills face turned hot and his fists clenched.
"Definitely a nice time." Seth grinned back. It took everything Bill had not to get up and punch Seth in the face. But then he remembered how immensely he was overreacting and that Seth was married and it was okay.
"And obviously Stefon." He pointed to Bill. He nodded.
"And actually; you two appeared on updated together. Nancy and John!" Seth cried holding up a picture of Kristen handing Bill a mini gavel.
"Awww!" They said together. The two of them looked at each other Kristen smiled to make it somewhat comfortable. Bill smiled back.
"I actually remember writing that with you guys!" Kristen said.
"My office!" Bill raised his hand. Seth nodded smiling.
"We've had some fun times in each other's offices!" He said. Kristen snuck a look at Bill. They started talking about the creation of Stefon but all Kristen could do was look at Bill. Finally, Seth's question broke Kristen out of her trance.
"For the final question, what did you guys learn about each other and your relationship while filming this movie?" He asked. Kristen and Bill looked at each other for what seemed like forever.
"Well..." Bill cleared his throat. "I learned how important she is to me, and how terribly we need each other and can't live without each other. And obviously how incredibly thankful I am to have her in my life."
The audience cheered and clapped like crazy. Kristen smiled at him.
"Kristen?" Seth said.
"Well...he said it. Basically..." She exhaled. "Basically that I don't ever want to live a life without him."
More applause and a 'my work is done here' smile from Seth.
"Thank you guys so much, I love you very much." He said, tapping the desk. Bill and Kristen got up and went backstage. He grabbed her hand and pulled her into the dressing room.
He looked at her for a second and then gave her a bruising kiss. This was nothing like the one in Bobby's office, or any of their kisses. There was a certain desperation in the way he firmly held her face and she had her hands tied around his back. Kristen pulled away.
"You can't just do this and leave you have to promise you have to-"
"Kristen. I love you. You're my soulmate. I meant what I said out there, okay? Maggie was a mistake. I wanted to get over you, but I was so dumb to try to use people. She deserves someone who loves her as much as I desperately love you. I never ever want to hurt you. I'm sorry for all that stupid shit I did. Because it's you; Kristen. It's always been you." Bill cupped her face with his hands and looked into her eyes. Those eyes; deep blue, giving him chills every time he looked into them.
"It's been ten years...and I've loved you all that time. Why stop now." Kristen whispered. Then she wrapped her arms around his neck, and looked at him one last time before kissing him passionately. She didn't even know if it was supposed to be like this.
Oh, but it felt so right.