HEARTBEAT #12
CAIAH's POV
Life is short. You wouldn't know what would happen next. You'll never know how much time you'd spend with those people you love. People will come and go. And you can't do anything to stop it if it's already destined
3 weeks have passed. Nasasanay na rin ako sa presensya ni Excekiel sa pamamahay ko. Minsan pa nga ay kasama niya ang iba niyang ka-banda pati na rin si Zephanie na walang ginawa kundi magsalita ng magsalita
"Baby.. " malambing na tinig ang nagpadilat sa akin. Sunod kong naramdaman ay ang marahang paghaplos ng kung sino sa pisngi ko
It's Excekiel. His scent is very familiar to me now, especially because he's so clingy. Inilibot ko ang paningin ko at napansing nandito parin kami sa living room. We were watching an action movie earlier with Zephanie and Reagan and didn't notice that I already feel asleep
I turn to face him and notice his soft expression while looking at me with so much care
"Tapos na yung movie?" Mahina kong tanong dahil galing lamang sa tulog
"Hmm" he said then gave me a slight nod
I rub my eyes and blink it for a few times more. I roam my eyes around once more and I notice that Zeph and Regan are not here
"They already left because we have a performance tonight" saad niya na tila napansin ang nagtataka kong tingin
"How about you?"
"Susunod na lang ako. Tatanungin ko sana kung gusto mong sumama pero alam ko naman na ayaw mo sa mga crowded place"
Minsan kasi ay nag-aya si Zephanie na mag-mall at wala akong nagawa kundi sumama dahil mapilit siya. Pero hindi ko naman alam na isa pala siyang sikat na modelo kaya may mga taong gustong magpa-picture sa kanya. And it didn't end up well. I just feel suffocated. Buti na lang dumating sila kaya agad din kaming nakaalis sa lugar na 'yon
"I can come" I said which made him look at me unbelievably
"Are you sure?"
"Hmm" sagot ko habang tumatango
"You're cute" He chuckled then pinch my nose
Napasimangot na lamang ako at tatayo na sana ngunit bigla na lamang niya akong niyakap kaya nabalik ako sa pagkakaupo
This is what I'm talking about. He's becoming so clingy as days goes by. And I don't know why or how but I just started to like this side of him
Aminin ko man o hindi, alam ko sa sarili ko na masyado ng napalit ang loob ko hindi lang sa kanya kundi pati na din sa mga kaibigan niya. And it's making me scared but I'm trying hard to fight it and be open to them
I remember the dream that I had weeks ago. This is what my mother wants. For me to live freely and happily. And those people who just came into my life suddenly makes me happy. Not that I'm not happy with Lei before but I know to myself then that something is missing. And I just found it by them
This might not end well but at least it made me happy even for a while. And I'm willing to take all the consequences in the end
"Let go. Magbibihis pa ako" mahinahong saad ko habang tinatanggal ang mga braso niya na nasa bewang ko
"5 minutes" usal niya at mas hinigpitan pa ang yakap
"Mala-late ka na sa performance niyo"
"Let them be. Makakapaghintay naman sila"
"Hindi mo dapat sinasabi yan. They're your band's fans" panunuway ko pa sa kanya
"And you're my baby" parang batang anya kaya napabuntong hininga na lamang ako at sinuklay ang buhok niya gamit ang kamay ko
