HEARTBEAT #19
CAIAH's POV
Memories from the past will always hunt you whatever you do. It will always be crept into your mind like a tatoo. And when someone triggers that, it will play like a broken stereo again and again without having a plan to stop. You can never escape from it nor try to forget it
I can hear the drops of the rain on the old roof of this house. It is the only sound that I'm hearing right now as I sit on the corner of the room where I used to sleep beside my mother. I look around and notice that everything in this room has changed. The room is empty far from what I remember the last time that I went here 6 years ago, before I met Lei
I used to live here for 2 years since I left home when I reached my legal age. Or if I can really call it a home. The only home that I have is this house and where I am living now
Gawa sa kahoy ang bahay na ito at may kalayuan sa bahay na tinitirhan ko ngayon. Marami ng sira kasama na doon ang butas butas na bubong. Masyadong maliit lang ang pamamahay na ito para sa isang pamilya. Kung tutuusin ay halos isang kwarto lamang ito. Wala masyadong kapitbahay dahil medyo liblib at looban pa. Pero ang hindi mawawala ay ang mga lasenggerong tambay lagi sa labas ng bahay ni Mang Tonyo kung saan laging umiinom noon ang asawa ni mama
I've been here now for 2 days. Sa paligid ko ay nagkalat ang mga balat ng biscuit at cup noodles na wala ng laman. Dumaan muna ako sa isang conveniece store bago nagpunta dito. Pinagtitinginan pa nga ako ng mga tao dahil sa suot kong dress at lalo na ang kalat kong make-up pero ipinagsawalang bahala ko na lang yon
My phone never stop from ringing but I ignore it until my phone shut down when it runs out of battery. I'm very sure that it was my friends and Lei but I don't want to talk to anyone right now and I wouldn't dare to drag them into this. I don't want to pull them into my misery
I look at the wall with an empty eyes. The only thing that keeps me on seeing is the the light that is coming from the bright moon since the electricity in this house is already cut off
The event that happened 2 days ago is currently playing into my mind like a movie. It started with me, feeling happy and thankful because that night makes me feel alive to the very time that I got face to face with one of the monsters in my nightmare
Gusto kong sabihin na 'Sabi na nga ba e!'. In my life, there's always a catch. An alarm that will remind me to wake up to my reality. That fairytale doesn't exist to someone like me. Everything will always come to an end. Those memories will fade like a forgotten dream like I have never been too happy even at once. Yeah, it s*cks but I have to suck it all up. 'Cause what I can do? That's the truth and I can't just keep on lying to myself if I knew that the only person who would get hurt in the end is me...
I sigh heavily and decided to leave this house. I already think enough. I open the door and was welcome by a pair of cold gray eyes looking straight into mine. It got me stunned and I wasn't able to move on where I was standing. I was just looking at his very familiar face who look so... mad. He definitely looks like a predator, losing his patience towards his stubborn prey which is actually me
I look at his face and notice that he lack of sleep based on his eye bags. He also look so stressed
I tried to collect myself and force not to stutter in front of him
"W-what are you doing here?" But I failed
I feel nervous. How can't I? When I was seeing for the first time how woukd 'mad Excekiel' looks like. But aside from madness that I can in his eyes, there's also sadness and hurt in it and I can't help but to feel guilty because I know that I was the reason behind it
