HEARTBEAT #07
CAIAH's POV
Overflowing emotions and feelings are always the reason for an outburst. You tend to say things without even thinking because it's your emotions that's talking. Your mind can get easily clouded by anger, disappointment, sadness and different kinds of negative emotions, you will not think twice to say words that will cause pain to others. But is it reasonable or not? Maybe yes, maybe no. It is based on how much pain you inflicted on that person and how great the love that person feels for you. One can say 'I love you' but not everyone can prove that it's true
"How's your day?" She ask then take a seat beside me
"The usual" I boredly look at the window and sigh when I saw that the rain doesn't seem to have a plan to stop
I pull the blanket because of the coldness that I felt. I am currently leaning on the side of sofa while covering myself with my thick blanket. Panahon na ng tag-ulan kaya madalas ay nakahiga lang ako sa kwarto o di kaya dito sa sala habang balot balot ng makapal na kumot
This is what I hate every time El Niña starts. I tend to just stay laying either on my bed or sofa just because I feel lazy to move around
"I want to watch a movie" I muttered as I look on the TV
"A romance movie?" She ask excitedly and walk towards the cabinet below that TV where the CDs are located
"A zombie movie" I answered then gave her a small smile
Suddenly, her smile drop at parang lantang gulay na bumalik sa inuupuan niya kanina
"No, thanks. Maupo ka na lang diyan at mag sight seeing. Baka kung ano-ano na naman ang sabihin mo habang nanonood tayo" walang ganang tugon niya
Napasimangot na lamang ako sa sagot niya. She doesn't like me to watch a zombie movies because a lot of weird stuffs always comes out of my mouth everytime we're watching. Is it my fault that, that's what comes into my mind every time I will see that kinds of scenes?
"Bakit nga pala hindi ko na nakikita ang drummer ng TS na umaaligid sayo?" She said after a while
I choose to just stare at the window watching the rain drops from above
"I don't know" walang ganang tugon ko lamang sa kanya at nagkibit balikat
"Don't tell me, may ginawa kang masama sa kanya?" Eksaheradang tanong niya habang nanlalaki ang mga mata at may bahid ng paga-akusa
"Of course not. Ano namang gagawin kong masama sa kanya?" Baka siya meron
I shook my head to remove my thoughts. I don't want to remember that man anymore or whatever that have a connection to him. It's been almost a week after that day at hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa nakikita maski anino ng lalaking yon. Kahit pa nung nagpunta ako sa studio nila. I'm starting to think that he's avoiding me and it's fine with me
"Uh-oh. Baka nakakalimutan mo na ang ginawa mo kay Ian noon dahil lang sa inis na inis ka na sa kanya?" She said while looking at nowhere like remiscing the past
I just shrug my shoulder as a response. I actually remember what she's saying. How can I forget it if that's the first time I did something bad to a person who I still consider as a stranger that time? It's actually really not bad. I just spread the rumors of him being gay. It is actually unintentional. I was talking to Lei when that happened
"I don't even know if he likes me! Ako na lang lagi ang nauunang lumapit sa kanya!" Inis na saad ni Lei habang hinihiwa ang steak na in-order niya
We're currently eating in a restaurant because she suddenly grab me out of nowhere and bring me here. Reason? She just wants to try this new restaurant that became the talk of the town after its grand opening
