HEARTBEAT #14
CAIAH's POV
In love, you have to risk but not all. Remember to left some parts for you. Something to hold on if everything falls on the wrong place. You better not to give it all. Because who knows what will happen in the future? In love, your partner is not the only one who needs love. Learn t o love yourself. With that, you will know when to hold onto that love and when to give up if you already give the love you intended to risk
It's already past midnight, based on the wristwatch on my left arm. I just keep on walking on a lonely road without even a single light. And the only thing that enables me to walk on the straight path is the light from the moon. It's surprisingly full moon right now and it gives me enough light to see. I don't even know if I'm taking the right direction but who cares? It's my choice
Yeah. Everything that's happening on me will always be my choice so I don't have the rights to complain like how it is my choice to like someone like Excekiel
There, I said it. I like him. I really like him. It's funny how eager I am to push him away from my life and now I just admit that I like that guy. That's wow
This is really not me. How can I like a guy in just a short period of time?! I have trust issues. I will always stay away from everyone who can have the tendency to hurt me but how about now?!
Even how many times I ignore the pain that I'm feeling right, it's just get more instense and much worse. This is why I hate being attach to someone
I sigh heavily and continue to walk until a group of men block my way. They are composed of 5 men and they all reek of alcohol. I suddenly feel scared and was about to go back when two of them also block the other way
I try to calm myself by breathing heavily. Fear won't do me any good right now. I jist need to find a perfect timing to run and get away with these drunkards
"Hi Miss! Naliligaw ka ba? Pwede ka naman naming ihatid... papuntang langit" saad ng isa na nilakipan ng tawa ganundin ng mga kasama nito
Namumula ang kanilang mga mata at tila mga leon na nag-aabang ng kanilang makakain. May malalaki silang pangangatawan at punung-puno ng mga tattoo. Para silang mga tambay sa kalye na walang magawa sa buhay
"Go away" I said with a stern voice when one of them tries to get close to me
Nagsitawanan silang lahat habang pinapasadahan ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. Kinalibutan ako sa mga titig nila. Buti na lang talaga ay sinuot ko ang hoodie ko kanina
"Inglisera pala itong si miss beautiful. Mayaman ka siguro. Tiba tiba pala tayo dito mga pare" tumatawang anya ng isa sa kanyang mga kasama
Lumingon muli ako sa paligid upang maghanap ng pwedeng lusutan para matakasan sila. Wala na akong pwedeng daanan kundi ang masukal na talahiban sa gilid ko
Tumingin ako sa kanilang lima at nagbilang ng tatlo bago mabilis na tumakbo. Tuloy tuloy lamang ako sa pagtakbo kahit na nararamdaman ko ang mahapding pagsugat sa akin ng mga talahib na hinahawi ko
Naririnig ko ang pagtawa nila habang hinahabol ako ngunit pinanatili ko lamang ang atensyon ko sa daan habang rinig ang malakas na tibok ng aking puso
"Akala mo ba ay makakatakas ka sa amin?!" Sigaw ng isa at tumawa pa
Mas lalo akong nataranta nang marinig ko na mas lumalapit sa akin ang mga boses nila. Ibig sabihin ay malapit na nila akong maabutan
Sa sobrang taranta ko ay hindi ko napansin ang nakausling bato sa tinapakan ko ay bigla na lamang akong nadapa. Ramdam ko ang sakit ng buong katawan ko pati na rin ang tuhod ko na tila nagkasugat pa
