HEARTBEAT #13
CAIAH's POV
Jealousy is another version of insecurity. Well, being insecure is not really a bad thing as long as you look at it in a positive way. You feel insecure because you think that you're not enough and it's okay. We're all just human. We tend to compare ourself to others. But remember to just take it as a motivation to improve yourself and not to bring others down. Because what would we get if we did that? Nothing. You're just making yourself a fool, thinking that you could surpass the one who you think is better than you. 'Cause at the end of the day, you knew to yourself that he/she is better than you
"Do you still remember my 18th birthday where you became my last dance and then someone just accidentally pour the chocolate in your suit? Oh my God! I still remember your face then. It's so epic" tumatawang saad ni Katrina na sinamahan pa ng malanding paghampas sa dibdib ng katabi niyang lalaki, which by the way is Excekiel
At ang talipandas na lalaki naman ay nakisabay din sa pagtawa at sinakyan naman ang kwento ng babae
I close my eyes intently. I don't know why but I just feel very irritated towards them everytime they laugh together as if they're the only one here. Excekiel doesn't even take a glance on us like we're not really existing
"That Katrina girl. Wala talaga akong trust to her pagmumukha. It's so nakakairita. Pati ang pagtawa niya. Akala mo naman ang ganda ganda ng face niya e puro retoke naman. Kung hindi lang yan kababata ni Ex ay sinabunutan ko na 'yan" naga-alburutong saad ni Zephanie habang gigil na umiinom ng juice mula sa kanyang baso
Well, that's the explanation of their closeness. They're childhood friends. They grew up together and of course knew each other very well. And in that thought, I can't help but to feel bitter
Napailing na lamang ako at ininom ang kulay blue na inumin na nasa tapat ko. My face distorted because of its bitter taste. What's kind of drink is this?!
Agad ko rin 'yong binalik sa mesa dahil hindi ko nagustuhan ang lasa. I heard Zeph chuckled because of my expression
"That's an alcoholic drink, girl. Baka malasing ka niyan"
"Where are the others?" Sa halip ay tanong ko
Nagtataka kasi ako. Ang pagkakaalam ko ay nauna silang dumating dito at kami na lamang ni Excekiel ang hinihintay
Bago pa siya makasagot ay dumating na ang iba habang may kasamang isang babae at isang lalaki na magkahawig
Nagbatian muna silang lahat and it didn't shock me to find out that they all knew who Katrina is. Maybe they already met her since she is a childhood friend of their bandmate
"Woah! Who's this beautiful girl here?" Said by the other man who is a stranger to me. And when I look at him, I found out that he's actually referring to me
"She's Caiah, our friend. Caiah, this is Quin and his sister, Dein the birthday girl" Reagan said
Tinanguan ko lamang ang lalaking nagngangalang Quin na may misteryosong ngisi sa mukha habang nakatingin sa akin. Tinanggap ko naman ang kamay na inabot sa akin ng kapatid niya at binati ito ng simpleng 'Happy Birthday'
His sister seem so shy and can't even look at anyone's eyes. Medyo nakayuko lamang siya at nagbibigay ng tipid na ngiti sa mga kasama. Kabaliktaran ng kapatid niya
Umupo na ang lahat. Nagulat pa ako tumabi ng upo sa akin si Quin
"Caiah huh. Nice name" nakangising saad ni Quin habang nanatili ang paningin sa akin
My forehead creased. What does this guy wants?
Napapitlag ako nang may kung sinong basta na lang humawak sa bewang ko mula sa kabilang side ko
