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Hawaiian memories

"We don't remember days, we remember moments." -Cesare Pavese

Matt's POV:
1 week, 7 days, 168 hours, 10,080 minutes, and 604,800 seconds until Lucy gets out of the hospital and until I can figure out how to at least try to get my angrier side under control and how I can make it up to Lucy for putting her in this situation.

She has put up with me through thick and thin and stuck with me through everything so one simple date can't make up for this.

I really just don't want to make another mistake that I won't be able to take back. There are so many things that I would do for her. I just, I don't know I'm just so in love with her.

Her eyes, hair, lips, cheeks, body. God really did help me out with Lucy. After Emma I honestly thought that I couldn't go back. That there was no one else that I could ever give two shots about but then Lucy came along.

My sweet little Lucy. I don't know how she did it but she changed my whole world around.

I don't know how but I'll change for her. Lucy is my world-my everything. Maybe I should visit Jeremy today and see what he thinks.

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I make it over to Jeremy's office in a matter of 10 minutes. Checking in I see the last patient coming out of Jeremy's office.

Her tan cheeks are stained with vibrant tears, and her lips are slightly pouted. "Hey, are you okay?" I ask concerned. She looks up at me, her light brown eyes glistening from the tears and the light above us.

"Y-yeah." She chuckles wiping her tears. "I'm alright just a tough session that's all." She smiles widely at me.

I smile then walk away. "Hey Matthew!" Jeremy greets me. All I do is just smile.

"So what's up? You didn't schedule a time for today." Jeremy raises his eyebrows at me. "I know, I just needed to talk to you." I sigh sitting down in the familiar green chair.

Jeremy nods. "So I really want to change for the my benefit and Lucy's benefit." I breath out. "I just don't know how to, ya know?" I look up to him.

"Well, we're offering a recovery camp that's in Hawaii if maybe you're interested. " Jeremy chimes in. I furrow my eyebrows together and purse my lips.

"I mean if you really want to change for the better. It helped a lot of people over the last few years." He explains to me.

"I might consider it, but how long will I be gone?" I ask. "About a week and three days."

"I-I wanna do it." I say and smile. Who knows maybe this might turn out good. "Great! You'll be leaving in two days!" both Jeremy and I stand up and randomly hug each other.

We laugh and pull away. "Thank you, Jeremy, this means a lot." I say and he pats my back.

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Today's the day I go to Hawaii. Right now I'm at the hospital, and I'm going to tell Lucy.

"Knock, Knock." I joked opening the door to Lucy.

"Hi" she laughs while standing up in her hospital gown.

"Wow look at you, standing up now" I laugh spinning her around. Once she's done spinning I hold her in my arms from behind and hug her.

"I'm really sorry about what happened" I mumble quietly resting my head in the crook of her neck. I kiss the base of her jawline softly.

"Matt it's fine" she sighs obviously getting annoyed at the fact that I brought it up again. I honestly just can't believe that I put her in here.