Complicated and confusing

Children

Katie's POV:
Teneille and I were around 20 weeks, everyone at the Yogscast knew already but Teneille's fans didn't and they were getting annoying. Teneille would always come home a bit earlier and so would I and we would just hang out and talk about random stuff like names and how cute they would be. "Do you think I should tell my fans I have been avoiding Wednesday's with Wolfbiskit because they are getting so annoying," she said to me.
"I don't know, maybe you should otherwise you will just magically disappear for a few months and everyone will wonder where the hell you went."
"Oh no obviously I will say when it's closer to, but it's just that they are getting annoying right now."
"Well," I wasn't quiet sure what to say.
"Anyways have you had a thoughts on a name."
"Well, if it was a boy, Kyle and if it was a girl, Victoria. What about you."
"Well boy, Jake, not Jakob and for a girl, Madison." We both decided that we would spend the last month and a half at home and the boys would stay for a month as some babies come weeks earlier and wanted to be prepared. "So when are you going to have the scan," Teneille asked. "Next week, you."
"Two days from now."
"Cool what are you hoping for."
"I don't know really and I don't really care if it's a boy I will love him if it's a girl I will love her and if he or she decides that later they don't want to be that gender then I shall just love them exactly the same."
"You will be a great mum."
"And so will you." We chatted a bit more about stuff when Teneille said she was going to head off home as the boys were going to be coming home soonish. "Bye Ten."
"Bye Katie."

Smith's POV:
With Ross and Trott becoming fathers my own thoughts started to scare me. Sam was always home before I was. "Hey Sam," I said as I walked in the door and gave her a kiss on the head. "Hey Smith," she sounded a bit sad.
"What's up Sam." I walked around the chair and sat beside her.
"I have something to tell you that I haven't told anyone not even Ten."
"Ok go ahead."
"I have a son who is 6 years old." I froze and couldn't believe it it wasn't my son but it was hers and that was scary. "I-is that why your so scared."
"Yes, I gave him up for adoption I just knew I wouldn't be able to look at my son and not see Ryan's face, but I'm considering going over to where he is and visiting." I was still shocked Sam must have only been 19 when she had the child. "Ryan thinks that he is dead so at least he is safe from Ryan, that's good."
"Yeah, you should go see him, he deserves to know who is real mother is." I hugged Sam tightly and she cried into me. "Sam it's going to be ok we shall go over tomorrow to get it over and one with I promise." She nodded. "I have already contacted the family and said I was going to come over tomorrow anyways and he already knows that he was adopted." I sorta felt bad for the little guy knowing he was adopted at 6. "What's his name then," I said trying the lighten the mood a little bit. She smiled at me, "Alex." I felt something warm and fuzzy inside and didn't quiet know what it was. "It's an awesome name isn't it." Sam and I laughed together.

Sam's POV:
We were going to see little Alex today, his adopted family said he was very happy to be meeting his actual mum and her boyfriend, which I thought was very cute. As I stepped out of the car I let out a big sigh. "It's going to be ok Sam your not taking him home or anything your simply just meeting him," Smith reassured me. I took his hand and walked up to the door, he knocked for me as I was so scared. "She's here, she's here," I heard a child yell. A tallish lady with long blond hair opened the door and had a small boy with brown hair hiding behind her. The small boy had blue eyes and brownish hair. I almost cried he looked nothing like Ryan he looked more like me. "Hi I'm Kyah," the lady at the door held out her hand, "and his is little Alex," she patted his head. Smith introduced us as I was still really shaky. "This is Sam and I'm Alex, as well." Little Alex's eyes lit up and he came out a little bit. "It's an awesome name isn't it little buddy," Alex said. I looked at him and smiled and that thought I was dreading came to my mind. "Come inside," Kyah said gesturing to the inside. Smith and I stepped in and two 13 year old girls screamed when they saw Smith. "Wholly crap is Alex Smith in our house for reals," one screamed.
"You must be famous what do you do," Kyah said looking at Smith.
"I'm a youtuber."
"Well that explains a lot then. How about you Sam."
"Police officer, day shifts only."
"I want to be a police officer, they are so cool." Alex made pew pew sounds and stood up on a chair so he was almost eye height with us. "Alex down off the chair please," Kyah said. I walked over to Alex and picked him up he was heavier then I expected but it was alright. He wrapped his arms around my neck and gave me the biggest hug ever. Until about lunch time we just chatted about Alex and school, Smith had a selfie and signed a note book for the two girls who's names escape me. "Well we better be heading off now, everyone is probably wondering where we ran off to," I said.
"Ok, well thanks for coming to see Alex he was really sad when I had to say he may not see you." I gave little Alex a hug and he gave Smith a hug it was so cute and that thought came to my mind again. When I got back to the house I saw my phone had many texts and calls from Teneille. I called her. "Oh my freaking god Sam where the hell have you been."
"Ten I have to tell you something."
"Ok what," she didn't sound angry but scared.
"When I was 19 Ryan raped me for the first time and I had a son I never told you and I'm sorry, I just went to see him."
"Oh my god Sam I'm happy for you, I hope you saw you and not Ryan."
"Yeah I saw me and guess what the funny part was."
"He is called Sam."
"No he was called Alex." I heard Teneille laugh. "Well at least your ok I don't want to lose you again."
"Ok I'm going to go nows, bye Ten cu tomorrow."
"Ok bye." I hung up and wiped my face with my hands. Why does this thought keep coming back to me I don't want another kid ever, stop brain.