Beta not Omega

Siblings

Lance's POV

I felt myself slowly start to awaken from what felt like a deep sleep, my body heavy and still tired but my mind starting to wake and stir the rest of me. 'I wonder how long I've been out for' I spoke to no one, well I thought no one.

"I think you've been asleep for about 12 hours solid, impressive even by your standards"

My eye flew open to see Pidge laying down next to me fiddling on one of their gadgets, her face quickly turning towards me sensing my shock. "Sorry to startle you, didn't mean to" she sullenly spoke.

I looked at her quizzically "how comes you're in here with me? Not that I mind you're always welcome, it's just a bit of a shock especially after everything that happened yest..." My mind instantly started flashing through all the events and talks of yesterday with Keith, he was saying such amazing things to me, praising and apologising to me, to me!? Then I remembered I had fallen asleep after crying next to him but he wasn't here now, my mind starting to worry that it was all just a trick just as I thought it would be.

"I can see you making that face you do when you're over thinking things. If its about Keith he literally burst into the kitchen declaring that we need to treat you the way you deserve and even faced up against Shiro for you." I could see her face turn devilish, reviling in seeing my reaction at the actions Keith took to help and defend me. 

Said reactions being covering my face into the pillow and trying to hide away from the world cause Keith was actually being sincere! He meant all the things he spoke with such emotion and none of it was a lie, he wanted me. He truly wanted me. I must've been releasing scents without realising as Pidge started to rub my back trying to comfort me.

"It's gonna be ok Lance I promise, I'm going to be here like you've been here for me, we're all going to do better just like you deserve."

"That means so much to me, thank you Pidgeon" I grabbed them and pulled them into a tight warm hug. I've missed having this normal physical affection so much. "Come on Lance, its around dinner time we should go down and see everyone, if you're up for it?"

My body froze at the thought even facing anyone else. What had happened? What had Pidge or Keith said? If they said anything? I could feel panic start to enter my body, my breathing picking up, my heart thumping into my ear drums. Then the sight of Pidge starting to worry and their scent going to one of distress and unsure jolted me, this managed to drag me out of my panic attack as someone I had deemed family was distressed, my Omega instincts kicking taking over.

I instinctively started to wrap Pidge into arms keeping her close and try to release any calming scents that I could. "I-I'm sorry Pidge, I'm ok now ok? Sorry for making you worry, I didn't mean to panic then." I could fell her grab onto me tightly, almost too tightly. "Idiot. You're allowed to go through these emotions I was just unaware and wasn't sure what to do I didn't mean to force you out of it, that's meant to be really draining. I'm still so new to all of this stronger scent I extrude, I'm sorry."

We just laid there for a while as I embraced my adopted little sister who had apologised to me. It was still foreign for anyone to say 'sorry' to me for anything but here Pidge was trying their best to a better person for me and recognising herself for what they couldn't control all the while trying to comfort me, is this what having a sister that cared was like? It had been so long since I had this feeling with my own flesh and blood, before they all took my parents example of excommunicating me from the family. A small tear left my eye.

"Thank you Pidge, thank you so so much for being here and trusting me during your presentation and being here when I woke up and even just apologising for such a small thing you couldn't control. I am so proud of you and would be honoured if you would fully accept being the first person I would form a pack with and be my honorary little sister.

If her scent was anything to go by I think they accepted. I can't believe I just invited Pidge to form our little pack bond! "Of course I will Lance! But don't expect me to be this clingy" she spoke with watering eyes. "Of course not little one, you'll always be our resident Gremlin and I can't wait to see what an amazing Alpha and person you'll grow up to be."

Our embrace continued, this feeling of belonging with a family in a pack felt like euphoria, a different kind compared to what me and Keith had done, my cheeks instantly going red from even thinking about that, but my heart was open to the chance of feeling like I belonged and hope started to flicker within my soul of a new beginning.

"Can all Paladin's please report to the bridge." Coran's voice pulsed through the Castle's speakers,  dragging me out of this moment of happiness and for the first time in forever, contentness.  I felt Pidge tighten their hold on me "You can do this Lance, I believe in you" and that's all it took for me to try and find the determination I needed to face everyone. 

Well it was until I found myself outside the bridge doors in my casual clothes with a Pidge hanging onto my sleeve, then the courage suddenly disappeared.

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Hi everyone, I'm alive!

Sorry for such a slow update, we're coming towards the end now. 

Hope you enjoy reading the new chapter, I love all the comments people leave! Some of you are actually hilarous.

Love you all, Kiki xxx