Beta not Omega

Sorry

Keith's POV

I started to stir from my sleep feeling something shake in my arms, slowly opening my eyes I could see Lance mumbling and trembling as he laid in my embrace. I instantly closed my arms and pulled him closer so our bodies were pinned together. "Shhhh, it's ok Lance I'm here. Tell me what's wrong?" I almost died at his reply.

"Your not disgusted by me?"

Lances voice was so small and fragile, if a pin had dropped it could've shattered him. I hated it.

"How could I ever be disgusted with someone so beautiful and amazing as you?" Confidence oozing from me, I don't want him to ever doubt I don't mean those words.

"But I'm just a pathetic Omega who made you have sex with me because my stupid pheromones forced you too, why would you ever want to be with me otherwise? You don't have to lie to spare my feelings Keith, I know what I am and what I'm worth please just go, now that my whore instincts have finished, please." Sobs and tears lacing every one of Lance's words, my Lance.

I gripped harder and pulled him as close as I could without hurting him. "No."

"What? Why? Please Keith I don't need pity I know my self worth you deserve better than just me."

"No."

How long has Lance been living like this?! I know he's changed over the past couple of months but I thought he was just trying to mature himself for the group and for Voltron, does he really think of himself so lowly?

Flashbacks of all the times that we put him down, degraded and secluded him as a group raced through my mind. After every battle Shiro not leaving a spare good word to say about Lance's actions, Allura always complaining about Lance's tardiness and only him never when someone else was late, us always starting meals with him, starting debriefs and meetings without him, no one ever feeling the need to check on him cause he always checked on us. We're part to blame for this, no wonder he doesn't value himself when we've shown him no worth.

I decided right then and there that I was going to do everything in my power to make him feel he really is someone worth loving, worth looking after, someone irreplaceable to me and all of us, he deserved this much and more, so much more.

"Lance, I'm so sorry that I haven't been there for you, I'm sorry that I haven't protected you, I'm sorry the group haven't been there for you like we should be, we're a team and we haven't acted like it. I don't know why but we've managed to make you feel excluded, forgotten and unworthy of being part of this team but you're everything to this team. Who else distracts us with their jokes, who else has been there to rely on even if we didn't know, who else has been there to take the flack for the entire team. You're the strongest person I have ever encountered, you're strength knows no bounds, I'm going to do all I can to try earn your forgiveness and become someone worth the title of your Alpha. I'm sorry Lance."

Lance's POV

Keith is apologising to me? But why? He hasn't done anything wrong, he's only ever pointed out my flaws and faults because they're so obvious and need amendment. This doesn't make any sense, he's an Alpha so why is he apologising to me an 'Omega'. I can feel his arms and body holding me close to him, the warmth between is so alluring and I so desperately want to believe the words he is saying but I know they have to be lies, I know better. I am a worthless Omega, I always have been and always will be, my 'family' before made sure I knew my place through constant slanders; "you're nothing and you'll always be nothing stupid Omega", "Whose ever going to want a disgusting Omega like you, you've got stupid freckles and those glasses are hideous of course you're gonna be alone forever", "Weak Omega's don't amount to anything, you're nothing and you'll always be nothing".

I shake my head and try to break free my Keith's hold, "let me go!"

"No."

That same reply again. Why can't he see he's wasting his time, he can find someone so amazing and worthy of his love whenever he wants, why is he still holding onto me?

"Please just let me go, you need someone better, someone worth you're love. I don't want you're pity and I hear what you've said but you still deserve so much more than me, let me go already!"

What Keith said next will stay with me forever.

"I will never let you go, I will never give up on you, I am going to make my entire purpose of living for you, I can not have a life which you're not in. You're the person that is going to bring me life, going to give me strength and confidence and I in turn will protect and love you with every fibre that I possess, you are the single most important thing in my life and I'm never going to stop telling you this until the day I die. You're going to become my everything."

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Finally back with another chapter!

Hope you'll enjoy =]

Kiki xx