Diamond : Choi Youngjae

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"I'm honestly wondering why you called me out today," he stared at me intently. "We were never on really good terms, and we rarely talked,"

I let out a sigh and lowered my head. Yugyeom had class so I couldn't call him, and he was the one who was closest to BamBam aside from Yugyeom and Jackson.

"How is he? BamBam..."

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair, looking around for a moment before focusing on me again.

"Do you expect him to be fine? You told him you fell for Youngjae and he slammed the door in your face. He's not picking up on any of your calls, neither mine, and every time I go and see him, he's always practicing his dancing. And I bet you know that what he does when he's seriously stressed out or feeling extreme emotion,"

I told BamBam I fell for Youngjae. Who else was I to go to? It's not like I could just go up to Jaebum and tell him I liked his best friend. I trusted BamBam, so I told him.

But do you know what he did? After I finished speaking, he just slammed the door on me and wouldn't pick up when I called and wouldn't reply to my text messages. I tried going to his house, but he wouldn't let me in. He'd open the door and close it the moment he saw it was me.

"It's not my fault I fell for Youngjae,"
"Yeah," he rolled his eyes. "That's what Ah Yeon said, too, when she fell for BamBam,"

I suddenly remembered what Youngjae told me. About girls leaving their boyfriends for a more attractive guy. Did he mean them? The others?

"Did you guys have girlfriends in the past, too? And BamBam had somehow..."
"Youngjae told you?"
"... Yes..."

I suddenly felt bad for asking...

"BamBam got all of the girls. Mine, Jaebum's, Jinyoung's, and I think he has Yerin falling for him, too. He's that powerful with girls. Me and my girlfriend were already a three year couple, but then she met BamBam. Jaebum's... Well... His wasn't too bad. Just a few months. Jinyoung's was the worst. His was five years."

I lowered my head.

"We don't really understand why Youngjae and BamBam are fighting over you. You and Youngjae aren't dating, but he's so protective over you. If he likes you, he should be a man and get you already,"

What exactly am I supposed to say now...?

"But you guys seem like such great friends."
"Oh, we are! But it's just that Youngjae seems to hate BamBam flirting with you, even though people would have thought he's used to it already..."

BamBam and Youngjae was arguing, and they were best friends. What would happen if GOT7 broke apart because of them? Because of me? Jackson had already left and their friendship was still strong, but what about Youngjae?

I'm honestly scared...

In the next few days, I was quite happy. Youngjae had actually sent me another message through the window. Nothing much, but still... He talked to me.

Have you been meeting with BamBam lately?

Of course not. He should know that, though...

No

He didn't send another message for a few minutes.

I missed you

That made me smile.

I missed you, too...

I'm being honest here! I really missed him. It's seriously boring without someone to talk to...

I'm sorry

Why is he the one who's always apologizing? Even during the times when I'm the one who has a fault... It makes me feel really bad, you know!

Don't be

Is he planning to make me feel bad?

Still

I didn't send him a reply anymore. I didn't know what to say. He just sent me another one.

Let's go to the roof, artist girl. I want to talk to you, face to face

I nodded and after much difficulty, got on our roof, not his. Going up to mine was already hard enough, imagine if I had to go to his. He was always the one who came to our roof.

"So..."

This is so awkward.

"I'm sorry, Jae,"
"Don't apologize,"
"But..."
"Don't. Just don't,"

I sighed and looked up.

"I heard about BamBam and their girlfriends.... Jaebum, Jinyoung and Mark's..."
"Up to now, I still feel bad for Jinyoung. Five years..." he admitted. "And he lost her to one guy after that long time... Is BamBam really that irresistible?"
"It's not that girls can't resist him. It's how he acts in which we fall for,"
"We? Even you?"
"I..."

I tried to change what I said, but I did say 'we.' For another time, I said the wrong thing...

"Forget it," he shook his head. "I knew it. No matter what I do, you still-"
"Youngjae. Please... Stop," I said, looking at him now.
"Why? You like him, too, don't you?"

Seriously, if we weren't sitting on the roof, I would have hit him already.

"No. I don't like BamBam."
"Don't lie!"
"I'm not lying!"
"Are you sure you're not?"
"Aish! If we weren't sitting here, I would hit you right now!"
"Tch. Why would you? It's not like you like me, anyway!"

Fine. I'm not going to tell him.

"Because...."
"Because what?"

We stared at each other before he dropped his gaze and I looked up at the sky again.

"Won't you just..." he started, trailing off. "Why are you making this so hard for me?"
"Whatever it is, I'm sorry, then!"

He groaned and called my name quietly.

"Park Chorong,"

I looked at him, waiting for what he was going to say next.

"I...."

He kept on hesitating...

"Just say it already,"

Sorry. I'm not a patient girl.

"I like you,"

The moment he said, I felt my cheeks heat up. I hung my head so he hopefully couldn't see it. And besides, the sunset was already setting.

"I don't want what's left of our friendship to break. I just wanted to let you know. It's... It's fine if you like someone else. I don't mind..."
"Choi Youngjae-"
"I don't want the two of us to be awkward. If you want, just forget I said anything. It's not important in the first place," he was speaking fast now.

Not important? Of course it's important!

He kept on talking and I had to shut him up. I couldn't understand what he was saying anymore, anyway.

I don't know if I'm going to regret this later on, but I really didn't know what to do so I just kissed him.

I repeat. I kissed Choi Youngjae, and no, this is not a joke.

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