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Alecs Pov.
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Today is officially one week since Arius had fallen into the deep slumber.
It has been wayy to long! I missed him. Even his insults.
I like to think the insults are a way to say he loves me. Of course, that is incorrect. But it helps to think so.
Right now I am at school. It's torture without him.
His friends have been different. Teachers stopped being creepy.
No insults. Alone for lunch.
Rooftop empty.
I'm so sorry I didn't realize what has been happening when you told me that this rooftop gave you peace. It was so obvious and I was blind.
I'm on the rooftop. No, not to jump.
To eat.
I take out my turkey sand-which and bite into it.
It doesn't taste the same. The taste is metallic. Everything looked so gray. And tasted metallic.
Nothing. I can't live without him and thats what I just realized.
Another bite I take, the more flavor that fades in. The more I think.
Another bite.
And Another.
And another.
Why is my sand which getting wet?
Why is my sand-which tasting like salt water?
Is it my tears?
Am I crying?
I bring up my hand to my face. I was.
Soon after, it started raining.
Not just raining, thundering and lightning.
I remember Arius loves this weather. He has always loved rain and he loved thunder and lightning for how badass it looks.
My sand which now finished with the last bite I took.
My hands soaked. I put my hands in my mouth.
Are my hands soaked in raindrops or teardrops.
It taste like a range of both.
I like to think when it rains, its from me.
Perhaps the raindrops and teardrops that soak my hands. Are similar.
What if I'm a cloud and the tears that leave my eyes are the raindrops. How confusing that is. But how comforting that deems.
I remember the day Arius told me this weather reminds him of me.
He told me he does not know why, just that it did. He thinks the humid weather after was even more like me. He said he does not know why.
He said the color yellow reminded him of me.
Is that why his favorite color was yellow? I'm getting my hopes up.
My favorite color is red. It reminds me of him too.
He once told me the sky calmed him down. He told me someone is always watching the sky at the same time. They are relaxed like you. Calmed down. They feel happy. They can sometimes feel your connection of your emotions. He told me if you look at the sky and you feel gloomy, the person looking back at you feels that way. And you traded your emotions at that time with them. The emotions would suit them better at that time.
YOU ARE READING
I've always loved you.
Roman d'amourYou ever think about, how if your homophobic friend, you have said to be the same, would react of you came out? Well in this situation, it didn't go well, or- did it?
