i did it
i won.
olympians beware
for i have done the unthinkable
i broke the rules
red carded.
no more of this
random pain
unsafe
risk.
sports last an hour
it's been ten years
i've felt unsafe
scared
not worthy
for ten years.
gold medal,
red card
i don't have to tell you anything
about me
my life.
you don't deserve to know me
i don't want you to know
how i'm doing
what i've done
achieved
you're not allowed
to play a role
in my life anymore.
it's not a theatre play
it's the olympics.
i'm worth more than how you treat me
i deserve more than how you treat me.
you're unstable
fine.
i don't care anymore
about you
why?
have you ever cared about me?
no
just used me.
your puppet
i'm strong
an olympic bodybuilder
took me as long as them
just as much work
just as many challenges
bumps in the road.
i lifted the weight
i ripped my calf in half
all for what?
the gold medal,
red card,
scars along the way
you made my life hell
hit where it hurts
made me unstable
made me feel
like i was nothing
because i am nothing to you
I AM WORTH MORE
THAN YOU DEEM ME TO BE.
i don't hate you
i despise
what you did to me
you shoved me
pinned me down
but i fought,
got back up,
and won.
by o.p.
you are enough, and so am i
