So profoundly unhuman
My skin a facade for the maggot eating zombie trying to rip through
Bruise on my chin, the devil socked me in the jaw for trying to think otherwise
In God I trust, forever
But the pain still remains, please Lord remain by my side
The wages of sin payed, you call me your child but the world calls me unworthy
Not fitting in feels intenser today
Too straight to be curly, too curly to be straight
Why is everything so hard?
Why should I advocate for myself, make the first move, maybe I just want to collapse into some cute boys arms at the end of the day
We could just sit there silenced by the pain radiating off me
I would make a good girlfriend God,
Bright lights of love blinding reality
I want love Lord
I want to scream and get drunk and release it all
But I have no one to invite me to the party.
