Am I Manly?

Chapter 11

eijirou's pov
i woke up feeling restless i grabbed my phone off the night table and i opened it covering my face at the blinding light coming off it i saw it was 2 in the morning i got up and i went to the bathroom. i left the light off as i stripped down and i climbed into the water and i washed myself. i got out and i wrapped a towel around my body and i went back to my room and i grabbed a crimson riot zip front hoodie and a pair of basketball shorts i got dressed and i grabbed a hair tie and i pulled my hair up. i went downstairs and i saw aizawa sitting at the table with a big stack of papers i thought he was grading papers.
i went to the fridge and i pulled out some strawberries and honey, i cut the stems off the strawberries and i poured some honey into a bowl and i went and i sat across from him.
why are you awake right now eijirou?
i was restless couldnt sleep so i just showered and got ready for the day i explained.
so you have any guesses as to what is going to happen today? he asked me
um well from what you guys have told me to wake up at 5am to wear a zip front hoodie or  button front shirt im guessing my surgery is today? i guessed
yeah it is but i do need to warn you they will be needing to do a weight check so they can know how much anesthesa to give you i will talk to them about your problem and see if there is something they can do make it so you dont see the number but with how hard you have been working to get better im sure nothing will go wrong. he said.
i smiled a bit as i ate my breakfast. i finished eating and i put my dishes in the dishwasher and i went up to my room starting to feel slightly nervous about the surgery im most scared about being put to sleep i grabbed my shark and i went back down stairs and i sat on the couch and i pulled my knees up to my chest and i hugged my shark as i watched tv till the mic came down he looked at me and he sat down next to me.
you nervous kid? he asked.
i just nodded. i know it can be hard thinking about this but you'll be safe he said.
i know im just scared about being put under, i dont know why im scared of it i just feel like something is going to go wrong, i said
aizawa came back down and we left we got int he car as i sat in the back seat hugging my shark.
we got to the hospital and we signed in.
a few minutes later we were called back.
okay we know about your problems with weight and food we know that seeing that number on the scale can be very triggering so what we will do is have you stand backwards and we will write down the number and we will show it to your dads the nurse said.
i just nodded. okay to get the most accurate number please take off shoes and any clothes that have weight on them, then go ahead and step on backwards, she said.
i nodded and i kicked off my shoes and i took a deep breath and i stepped on backwards, a few seconds later she told me to step off and she wrote a number down and she showed it to aizawa and mic and i saw the look on their faces fall.
what, whats going on why did your face change like that  whats wrong? i asked as franticly.
i will go talk to to the doctor about this the nurse said they both nodded and she walked out.
can one of you tell me what is going on please? i asked as i started to get anxious.
aizawa looked up at me from his seat.
i started to scratch my hand as i felt my breathing getting heavy.
oh hey hey hey its okay he told me as he quickly pulled me into a hug and he rubbed my back gently.
we dont know how to say it so we are waiting for the doctor to explain it to you properly we didnt mean for you to get this anxious, he said to me softly.
there was a knock on the door and it cracked open and the doctor came in and he pulled a seat over and he didnt look happy.
eijirou im really sorry to say but your weight is very low i understand your in recovery but your at least 15lbs under weight to be able to put you under anesthisa and perform the sergery safely so im sorry to say but we wont be able to perfom the surgery safely today. i felt my heart shatter into thousand pieces as i felt tears start to stream down my face, i felt like i couldnt breathe properly anymore.
i understand that this is a very hard moment for you once you get that weight on you can come back and we will do it for you but right now its not safe, ill give you guys a moment, he said as he got up and he walked out.
can we just go home please? i asked quietly.
yeah of course we can he said as he let go of me.
i got up and i wipped my eyes and we walked out and we got back in the car and i just sat in the back seat quietly crying not wanting to bother them.
we got home and i grabbed my shark and mic opened the door i ran up to my room and i shut my door and i climbed into my bed and i pulled my  blackets around me tightly as i just cried i couldnt hold it back anymore i just started sobbing.
i clutched my shark so tight that my hands turned white.
i heard my door open but i didnt turn over the person didnt say anything the door closed and i just felt so powerless so weak, i feel like i might never be able to get this done.
i just laid there in the now tear stained sheets as i continued to cry but no tears where coming out. my door flew open and i felt some one hug me.
i turned my head and i saw the poofy green hair that i love so much.
i turned over and i hugged him tightly as i heard more footsteps coming up the stairs i lifted my head and i saw kat, he came over and he pulled me away from izuku and he hugged me tightly to him as he laid us down on the bed and kept me in his arms with my face in his chest.
im so sorry that happened baby we will help you okay i talked to aizawa and he told me about your recovery plan we can help you with that i know your heart broken right now, he said
hey. he said as he lifted my head to look at him. you are a handsome strong brave man ei you just had a really hard life growing up and it effects you now but your amazing and im so lucky to have you in my life now and i love you so much baby boy. he said to me sweetly.
he leaned down and he softly kissed me i kissed him back as i felt izu's softly rub my back i sat up and i looked at both my boyfriends and i grabbed kat and i pulled him over and i laid him down next to izu, he laughed a bit.
i laid on top of him and i nuzzled into his neck as i reached over and i grabbed izu and i pulled him closer to us, he cuddled into us and i started to calm down a bit as i felt very loved right now.
i spent the next hour just cuddling them and sharing loving kisses and hugs, till i feel asleep on kats chest as he played with my hair.
i woke up groggily to the sound of talking.
how is he? i heard someone ask.
hes been asleep for about an hour now we did what we could be we dont know how much it helped. i heard izuku say.
i opened my eyes a little bit and i saw aizawa standing in the door way. i just wanted to go back to sleep so i cuddled down into him as i nuzzled my head back into his neck and i felt him wrap his arms around me. its okay ei you over did it a bit just keep resting kat said to me softly as he kissed my head.
i reached over and i grabbed izu's hand.
i was peaceful now i felt comfortable. like this but i knew that if they left i would fall back into a depression.
when he wakes up tell him that we are going to start making dinner he told them before he left.
i turned myself so i was laying in between them and they both rolled over to face me. and they both put an arm over my waist i apprecate you both coming, i said quietly.
of course baby why wouldnt we come when we heard you were hurting we had to come help izu said sweetly as he leaned over and he kissed my cheek.
their making dinner down stairs why dont we go down and join them, kat said.
i just shook my head i dont want to i just want to stay here with you guys. i said
i know baby but if you dont eat you cant impove your recovery ill tell you what ill go talk to aizawa and mic maybe they will agree you can either eat dinner with us do one of your papers or have a shake for dinner? kat said as he let go of me and he got up.
i whined a bit wanting him to come back and hold me.
ill be right back baby okay i wont be long. he said as he leaned back down and he kissed my head.
he walked out of the room and i turned over and i cuddled izuku.
we just laid there in a comfortable silence as he placed kisses on my head.
kat came back in and i turned my head and he smiled a bit.
so aizawa said that he would  prefer you have a shake but he wants you down there with him while he makes it, he said
i just grumbled and i burried my face into izu's neck.
ill give you my hoodie if you get up? he teased.
i quickly sat up and he picked up his hoodie from the floor and he handed it to me , i grabbed it and i went to my closet and i clsoed the door of it i took off the jacket i was wearing and i pulled on his hoodie and i walked back out and they were both standing there.
i go over and i hug kat. how about i carry you down stairs to the kitchen? he suggested.
i nodded and he leaned over and i climbed onto his back and we walked out he carried be down the stairs and he took me to the kitchen and he sat me on the counter.
aizawa came over and he stood in front of me. hey i know what happened today wasnt what any of us were expecting i know how hard that was for you to hear but you have to keep going okay we want you to get this weight on as fast as you can so you can get the surgery sooner than later. we dont want you regressing in your recovery if you ever feel like you cant eat you know you just need to talk to us and we can make you a shake or something easy for you please dont feel like you cant talk to us okay, he said as he pulled me into a hug.
i hugged him back, i know i know but its so hard to admit it i said softly.
i know it is and we will work on that okay but right now help me make a protein shake for you? he asked.
i nodded and he pulled out the blender and he sat it on the counter, and he went over to the fridge and he opened it and he stepped to the side and he waved me over.
i got off the counter and i walked over to the fridge, i looked around inside the fridge and i picked out vanilla yogurt and strawberries, i closed the fridge and i went back to the counter and i hopped back up, is there anything else you want in it? he asked.
i thought for a bit, some banana and honey i said softly.
he nodded and we grabbed the stuff and the big jar of protein powder and he put everything into the blender and he made the shake for me and he handed it to me as the others sat down at the table, i sat down as i sipped on my shake as the others ate udon, i felt bad that i wasnt eating with them but i felt like i couldnt eat what they made.
we all talked a bit well mostly the four of them were talking and i just listened to what they were saying.
they all finished their noodles and i had only finished half my shake.
we have school tomorrow so we need to go home ei we will see you tomorrow. izuku said.
i got up and i walked over to them i wrapped my arms around kat and he wrapped his around my waist and he hugged me he lifted my head and he kissed me sweetly i love you baby. he let go of me and izu came over to me and he hugged me and he kissed me i love you ei please stay safe okay. i nodded i love you guys ill um see you tomorrow.
they left the house and i grabbed my shake and i took it back up to my room i sat it on my nightstand and i just climbed back into bed and i just scrolled through social media.
i slowly finished my shake and i took it back down to the kitchen and i rinsed my cup out and i put it in the dishwasher and i went back to my room and i went to my closet and i looked around and i saw my new swim suits sititng in the corner i wanted to go in the back yard and swim but i know with what happened today it might be hard but i miss swimming so much i pulled out my red swim trunks that had a black swim binder on top of it.
i held it on my hands and i looked at it i decided to give it a shot it might help me get my mind off things.
i changed and i went to the bathroom and i saw the swim binder made me look really flat but it didnt squeeze my ribs like my normal binder does.
i put on the shorts and they actually made me feel pretty good.
i grabbed a clean towel and i went down stairs and i saw them both sitting on the couch.
oh are you going to go try out the pool finally?  mic asked
um yeah i wanted to give it a try see if it could take my mind off of other things. well mind if we join you for a little bit i was planning on swimming a bit later tonight? mic asked.
i just nodded yeah i dont mind i said as i went out the backdoor and down the stairs of the porch to the pool i sat my towel down and i walked down the steps of the pool and i sat down on the bottom of the steps as i felt the water resting at about chest level it felt nice being this deep in water again.
i leaned back and rested on the steps as i saw the door above me open and mic came out and he came down the stairs and he came over and he sat his towel on the chair and he went over to the diving board  and he jumped off and he did a basic dive off and he swam over and he emerged right infront of me why dont you have some fun play with the diving board the slide a bit? he suggested.
i dont know maybe in a little bit ill just swim around a bit. i said.
i went under the water and i swam over to the deep end and and i went down the slope of the pool and i swam along the bottom of the pool. i surfaced and i took a breath.
oh wow i had no idea you could hold your breath like that! mic said with a laugh.
i just laughed. as i went back under and i swam back over to him.
i came back up and i saw that aizawa was in the water next to him, i gasped a bit as i stumbled a bit, god when did you get in here?
he chuckled a bit.
we all swam around a bit till it was dark.
we got out and we all got wrapped our towels around us and we went back inside.
that was a good way to get my mind off of things. i said as i went up the stairs as they went down the hall, i jumped through the shower and i got out and i got dressed and i went to bed, i grabbed my shark and i curled up around it as i fell asleep.