Am I Manly?

Chapter 14

eijirou's pov
( time lapse 6 weeks (eri's rescue) [ sorry writers block]
i was sitting in the classroom and i felt so anxious thinking about this mission i was on with fat, and the others i looked around and i saw izu chewing on the tip of his thumb as he was bouncing his leg, asaui was spaced out and uraraka was trying to stay awake but she couldnt.
okay guys thats the end of the day go ahead and head home i need the work study students to stay back, aizawa said.
the other students got up and we all stayed sitting.
you guys are struggling to pay attention for the last couple of days so nezu approved you guys to take the following days off till after the extraction you two i know its hard to keep bakugou out of the loop on this i know he isnt easy to work with but i can see he is trusting you, but if you want i can talk to him and tell him that you two are being looked after during this.
um  no i honestly dont think that would be a good idea he would press for details and we cant have him knowing i said.
i understand i wont talk to him but you guys go home and get some rest and tomorrow morning 7 am be at the meeting hall the rest of you can go eijirou i need to talk to you, i got a little scared but i nodded.
izu came over and he gave me a quick kiss before he walked out with the girls.
hey i wanted to give you a warning before we do it when we get home so you can prepare, you have a weigh in today so we can update your doctor in regards to your surgery, i took a deep breath and i nodded.
hey i know that when we do this is hard for you i know it hurts you but we are only doing this to help you, you understand we arnt doing it to hurt you dont you? he asked
i know and your right it is really hard for me when i do that its really hard to not look back at the number i said.
i know okay how about after we do the weigh in we watch a movie and you can help me make some snacks.
um i think i would rather just shower and go to bed. i said quitely as i grabbed my bag and i walked out i got in the car.
soon him and mic came out and they got in and we took off back to the house.
we got back and i went to my room and a few minutes later aizawa came in with the scale in his hand i nodded and i went to my closet and i took off my shirt and my pants i was in nothing but my binder and my boxers i hated doing this but i knew that doing this was more for him so he knew i wasnt hiding anyhting that would add extra weight.
i walked out and he sat the scale on the floor i turned around and i stepped back on it i tried not to move, once he told me i was good i stepped off and i grabbed a shirt.
hey ill leave you be for a while, do you want to eat with us or just up here? he asked.
um i think i just want a shake tonight ill take it up here, i said softly. he nodded and he walked out.
i climbed in my bed and i pulled my blankets over me as i hugged my shark.
i texted with izuku a bit i want to talk to kat so bad but i know that if i talk to him im going to end up spilling everything and he cant know anything.
i feel bad cause ive been avoiding him cause i dont want him getting involved and getting hurt.
i just laid there for a while till there was a knock on the door.
it cracked open and i saw mic, he came over and he handed me my cup. thanks, i said softly.
hey i know a mission like this is scary especially being trans and still in recovery a lot could happen but remember you got that reinforced chest plate put in the shirt of your hero costume so even if your shirt gets ruined the plate will keep everything covered and protected.
thats not what im worried about what if when this whole thing is over kat is mad at me cause ive been avoiding him because of this. i explained.
oh ei i dont think he will be mad, ill talk to him okay i wont tell him any details of the mission. he said.
i just nodded.
its okay ei i promise the rescue mission is in three days you need to be ready sho will be with you the whole time. he said.
i know he will be but this is still my first mission and im still scared it does make me feel better that shota and izuku are going to be there with me. i said.
now drink your shake and get ready for bed i know today was hard. he said.
i nodded and i sat up grabbed my cup.
hey ei your doing such a good job we are both so proud of you, he said with a smile, as he walked out.
i took a drink and about an hour later i finished my shake and i laid back down and i fell asleep.
i woke up and i stretched a bit. i got up and i went to my bathroom and i looked at myself in the mirror i knew that was a mistake but i did it anyway i felt a huge wave of dysphoria wash over me i quickly pulled away and i went back to my room and i grabbed a pair of sweatpants and one of kats oversized hoodies i grabbed one of my blankets and i wrapped it around me i grabbed my shark and i went downstairs, i plopped on the couch and i pulled my knees to my chest and i pulled the back of the blanket over my head as i reached my hand out from under the blanket and i found the remote i turned on the tv.
i got lost in watching tv that i didnt realize that aizawa was coming down the stairs.
hey eijirou your up pretty early everything okay your wrapped up in your blanket pretty tight? he asked.
i jumped a bit when he spoke.
i hate this i grumbled, he was half way to the kitchen and he heard me grumble but didnt hear what i said.
he stopped and he turned back to me, he came back over and he kneeled down infront of me. hey ei you okay? he asked genuinely
i just looked away from him and i shook my head softly.
is there anything i can do to help you? he asked.
i want kat here he knows how to help but i cant be around him and risk telling him everything, i grumbled.
well how about you tell me what he does to help and i can figure out a way to help you as well as call midoriya and see if he can come over i know he isnt bakugou but hes still your boyfriend so he might be able to help. he offered.
i just nodded. well he does this this wraps me in my favorite blanket and lets me lay on him while he plays with my hair, he always makes sure i have water and a small snack either ritz crackers or rice crackers. he puts on a movie for us to distract me and we just relax for a while, i said softly.
well i dont know about the whole cuddling part i dont mind you resting your head on my lap but i think the best cuddle buddy in this house would be gozu he likes to hide out downstairs ill go see if i can find him i know you like him, he said. i just nodded.
he got up and he went down stairs and he came back up with the fluffy black and orange kitty he came over and he sat him on my lap and he ruffled my hair a bit, ill go fix you something to easy to eat. he said as he went back to the kitchen.
a few minutes later i smelt coffee brewing and i heard bacon sizzling.
gozu looked up at me and he trilled a bit and he stood up he moved so he was laying next to me and just looked at me.
i gave in and i laid down on the couch and he laid next to me and he just looked me in the eyes and started purring.
i felt my heart melt back together slowly the more he purred, i reached my hand out and i rubbed his head.
hey boy, you always know when i need your help dont you buddy i said to him.
he leaned in and he rubbed his face on mine gently.
i laughed a bit as i just laid there with him.
a few minutes later he came back out and he had a plate, here i just made you some plain eggs and buttered toast, i know you've gotten better about these so i hope this is okay and here is some water, he said as he sat the plate on the coffee table.
hey ei i wanted to talk to you, you know the others are already moved into the dorms i know your scared of the dorms with everyone there but i think we might have figured out a way you can be safe, we have 2 rooms left available one on bakugous floor right next to his and theres one away from all the student rooms up on the teacher floor its about 4 doors down from ours and we will also say you can bring gozu with you we know how close you two have gotten the other three will stay here and hizashi and i will trade every once in a while who stays and who goes but there will be days that we are both there if you need us, he said.
i thought about as i ate my eggs and i nodded, as much as i love kat i think the room by you guys would be a safer bet so im away from the other kids so no one finds out anything and i think having gozu there would help me, i said softly as i rubbed his ears.
thats good while your our with fatgum and tamaki today hizashi and i will get everything in order to get your dorm set up and it should be ready by tomorrow night, he said.
i nodded and i sat up i know you arnt great about it but can i uh have a hug? i asked softly.
hey of course i may not be the most effectinate but your still my son and i understand your pain, he said as he opened his arms i scooted over a bit and i leaned into him he wrapped his arms around me tightly. i really apreciate this, i said softly
there was a soft knock on the door and he announced that it was open.
i heard the door open and close and i felt some one sit next to me and gozu growling a bit.
hey gozu you still hate me dont you? i heard izuku say.
i smiled a bit and i let go and i moved over so izuku he opened his arms for me and i cuddled into him, he ran his fingers gently through my hair i felt tears in my eyes as he hugged me tightly, gozu moved over and he softly batted at my face trying to clear the tears, i love this cat i said softly.
i know you do, he loves you too ei but i dont think he very much likes me, izu said with a laugh.
i looked up at him and i got lost in his emerald eyes.
he smiled a bit and he put his hand on the side of my face, your okay now ei, he said softly, he rested his forhead on mine making me look at him.
ill leave you two be for a bit i have to get ready for school, aizawa said.
izuku leaned down and he kissed me softly.
thanks for coming izu its so bad today, i said softly as i laid my head on his chest. anything you need baby im here, he said with a smile.
did you get a chance to eat anything yet, do you need me to make you anything? he asked.
no im okay he made me some eggs and toast. i said
come on lets go up to your room and we can relax a bit, he said.
i nodded and i got up gozu jumping down and he followed us up the stairs.
we got to my room and we laid down on the bed, and we cuddled up together i rested my head on his chest and he hugged me.
we have that meeting in 2 hours so we can cuddle for an hour then we need to get ready to go, he said.
i nodded and we curled up together as gozu laid on my pillow above my head so i could still pet him.
i kept glancing at the time and it was slowly getting closer to the time we needed to go.
i saw the one hour tick away and it was time to get up now he gave me one more kiss and we got up.
we got dressed and we headed out, we seperated and i headed towards fatgums agency while he went to nighteyes.
i got to the agency and i went to the locker room where i saw fat waiting.
hey i know im late but im sorry i had some stuff happen.
its okay kirishima mr aizawa called me and told me what was going on are you feeling better now? he asked.
yeah im good now give me a second to get changed then we can head to the meeting. i said.
i quickly got changed into my hero costume and we headed out.
hey have you had anything to eat today, i could go for some takiyaki? he offered.
um im not too hungry right now i had some eggs and toast earlier but we can stop and you can get some, i suggested.
thanks kid by the way i wanted to say ive noticed you looking a lot healthier your recovery is going really well im proud of you? he said
yeah well hanging out with you and tamaki all the time has really helped  with both of you having food based quirks its helped me be more comfortable eating in public and around other people and honestly thanks to you two and my parents and my boyfriends im ready to move into the dorms. i said to him.
oh thats good im proud of you he said as we stopped at the food stand he ordered his food and paid and we left we made our way to the meeting hall.
we went inside and we saw everyone waiting.
the meeting went on as normal till i heard it.
the rescue will commence tomorrow morning we need to be there at the doors of the hide out before they know we are there.