Chaos and torment.
The two things Delle endured the most in her life. As she tried to get out of the mess, she got entangled with different kinds of people. Delle came to love being with them, and finally found someone who let her experience peace...
Note: Second male leads are now slowly going to be revealed in the following chapters! ❤️
Carefully, I placed Luna and Mana's blanket over them and smiled at how adorable their faces looked like when sleeping. The two are so close that even when asleep they couldn't be separated from each other. They're like their own pillows.
I wonder what they'll be like when they grow up.
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The rest of the girls were also asleep when I slowly crept outside to get some fresh air. It's already four in the early morning, and I woke up from a peculiar and a depressing dream where... Mikey wasn't the same Mikey I knew.
It's kind of frightening. Thinking the person you knew isn't the same person anymore. As if that person became a stranger.
But of course, it's only a dream. I shouldn't overthink such trivial matters. It's not going to happen anyway.
I rested my elbows on the railings as I reached the balcony at the end of the hallway. Seeing the sky, all I could think about is how things are fine now. Everything's okay now. I think... I think I'm okay now.
And yet, there's still something creeping inside me, making me feel afraid.
"Nel," Kei uttered the last time we talked. "Why don't you want to go back?"
Who would want to go back to the people who hurt you? That much is already common sense.
I shook my head. "I can't handle—No... it's more like I don't want to get hurt anymore."
No. It's actually because I'm afraid what will become of me... once I feel pain once more.
Because I know what will happen if I receive much more pain than I could.
It'll destroy me.
"You're just running away, Nel," she said, startling me. "Stop running away. This won't solve anything."
She's right, but...
I raised my hands. "I've heard enough, Keirina," I ordered and she stopped.
She still respects me, huh.
"I just..."
I just can't deal with everything anymore. And that's right, I'm using everyone else as an excuse to pretend I'm getting better. Shin-san would've been disappointed and so will the others.
