𝕞𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕓𝕖𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕟 || 𝚅𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚒𝚎 𝙷𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚛

20. "you now have my blessing."

please be sure to read my note at the end

^play "I Like Me Better" by Lauv :)

The first week of school has been great. Gigi and I had every class together, both the online ones. We got to talk to new people and make new friends, and always being together, people assumed we were sisters or even twins, except for people who already knew us. Just like I imagined, psychology is my favorite class. Gigi's favorite is astrology and she's convinced she's going to become an astronaut and work for Elon Musk. I avoided telling her it's just a phase because Gigi works best when she's motivated.

I haven't been anywhere else other than my apartment, Larray's house, and a newly made friend's dorm. On Thursday, for the first time, Amira and Mia came over to our apartment. When I saw them though, I was about to leave the house. I didn't know they were coming over and I didn't think Mia would even want to see me, so I never thought she would come over.

Amira... Well, I had never spoken to her, and up until two seconds before she told me hi in the kindest way ever, I disliked her. I said hi back and told them I had to leave and Amira frowned. At that moment, looking at her from a different point of view, one where I didn't know her at all and never heard of her, she seemed very nice. But also a bad bitch. She's like polite but also confident, which is obviously a good thing. Technically, I'm not supposed to have any problem with her anymore. Who knows, maybe I could give our friendship a try.

It's been a few days since I talked to Vinnie and I can say I'm getting used to this habit of not seeing him. I just don't think about him. Or try. Same thing. School has been keeping me busy anyway, so it's not like I have much time to just sit and fantasize about him. I just find it funny how when I was with him, I had a sense of peace that made me want to stay forever and now I'm out of my euphoric state and living like I never met him. Those three weeks with him though were beautiful.

School has also been keeping me away from all the hate on the Internet, which did slow down and now I bearly see anything mean. It probably also has to do with the fact that I blocked some words from my dms. Monday and Tuesday felt like shit though. I was happy and excited about school, but my chest was burning. A few people asked me about Vinnie and me, but I just talked around the topic. It kind of took me back to the first day of sophomore high, after I blew up over the summer break and everyone was asking me all sorts of questions.

My parents aren't mad anymore, just... disgusted probably. Esme has been helping me and Gigi with school, in the way that she can anyways. She said she could see me with Vinnie and I told her she should make herself blind then and we laughed it off, but hearing someone mention Vinnie's name to me for the first time in a few days did catch me off guard. Mimi has become the one who doesn't answer calls now. She posts herself a lot online with her friends now. And I'm happy she's happy.

I guess I can say everything is going fine. There's nothing I would really change in particular.

"Are you done now?" Gigi says, sitting in front of me, with her hand on her jaw.

"Hmm yes." I laugh as I finish off my assignment. Gigi finished a long time ago and has been waiting for me, cause she says she wants to tell me something.

"Ok, what is it?" I close my laptop and look at her.

"Ok so," She sits up excitedly. "Mia and Amira asked if you and I could join them for lunch tomorrow at Melrose. And maybe go shopping."

'Melrose' immediately brought in a flashback of all the memories from the day I went there with Vinnie.

I raise my eyebrow at her.

"What?" She asks.

"What do you mean what?" I roll my eyes smiling, as I get up from my seat. She follows behind me as I walk into the corridor. "I know you know I know Mia doesn't like me. What does she want to do? Poison me?"