𝕞𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕓𝕖𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕟 || 𝚅𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚒𝚎 𝙷𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚛

39. 'you'll wish you had never met me.'

"I look fucking desperate." I look away from my phone and Gigi, hopeless. Gigi laughs boldly and I can't blame her because I am desperate. I've texted Vinnie or called him with no response every day for a week and a half since we last saw each other. Today, I texted him I'm sorry, which is the same as 6 out of my 12 messages. He's not bulging. I have no right to be mad at him since I was also incredibly angry solely because I was jealous. But I do think he should give me another chance. I fucked up, more than he did, but I am sorry.

"And so what if you look desperate? You've got to fight for who you love." Gigi laughs.

"First off, don't say love. Secondly, I literally swore I'd never crawl at any man's feet and here the fuck I am." I say raising and falling my arms.

"You also swore off guys." Gigi reminds me as she glances away. She looks back at me and seeing my expression she adds. "Too early?"

"Is it too early to ask when you're going to admit your feelings for Chase?"

"Lena, please be serious." Gigi rolls her eyes. I avoid telling her I heard her talking on the phone with who I assume was Chase just two nights ago when she thought I was sleeping. It sounded personal, so I decided against interrupting.

"Ok, but any updates on your friendship?" I want to know if she'll tell me. My hope is really high because it's almost as if this determines at what point our friendship is.

Gigi seems to think about it for a moment. "We talked on the phone the other night." She shrugs like it's no big deal.

"Oh my God! Tell me all about it." I show the same surprise I had when I heard her on the phone. I inch my chair closer towards her on the dining table. She looks at me like I'm weird but she chuckles too.

"Nothing serious. He was drunk and he called me. But I ended the called because I didn't want to hear whatever he had to say drunk." Gigi looks somewhat sad. The excitement I had at the first half of her speech dies instantly.

"Why would you do that? Drunk words are the most honest!" I say incredulously that she would make such a mistake.

"Well I didn't want to hear it." Gigi snaps, not angrily, just hastily. Of course she didn't want to hear it. We both know what he could have said, or rather, confessed.

"Ok... Then what next?"

"Well, then he called him a few hours later. I told him why I ended the call and he agreed with me."

"Wow." I huff silently. I actually think Gigi's love story might be more interesting than mine. I smile at the irony. For the first time in a while, I don't care about my own situation. I want to be involved in Gigi's love life more than anything else.

"Then I asked him to tell me about his night and he did. And then we just... talked."

"So Gigi, you are honestly going to look me in the eyes and tell me you don't believe he has feelings for you? He agreed with you, Gigi." I try to make Gigi reflect on it, although I know she's not stupid and she knows the truth too.

"Lena, it doesn't matter if he does. He would never admit it. Sierra, remember? She doesn't believe he's capable of anything serious and she's just going to think we're messing around." Gigi reminds me of the slight inconvenience. I don't have the courage to say anything about it because I broke mine and Gigi's promise, so I don't feel like I have the right to.

"What if you explain it to Sierra? Let her know you guys are serious." I suggest an approach I should have taken with Gigi, but Gigi cringes, slightly laughing.

"I can't imagine Chase having a serious talk about liking a girl. Just imagining it feels like something is wrong." Gigi smiles frowning.

"Do you like him? Honestly."