Written on: March 10 8:29 pm
I came upon this statement earlier,
"We must all know our darkness, for how else do know where to shine the light?" Indeed.
I had a busy day today. I was busy sorting out my thoughts. Mostly, I laid down in bed, distracted myself. Yes, nafifeel ko it sakit haak lawas and I know na I'm unconsciously preparing myself for the worst nga pwede mangyari. Changing my mindset and enhancing it, thinking that pain is necessary and it'll go away soon and maybe if it don't then maybe I am meant to embrace it.
How do one embrace pain and suffering? Can a smile aid that? Can a little throwback make everything else a little bit okay? Can I cry and feel a little bit okay? Can I do all these just to feel okay?
I guess I can. But, it just doesn't go away. It stays.
If only dying would be like waving goodbye because one has to temporarily move into the city and pursue her dreams, then that would've had been okay right? But it doesn't work that way and everyday this thought hunts me even as I wake up or fall asleep.
The activities that are supposed to be easy became something I struggle to do now. How crazy is that? haha
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