Love Is Not Weakness (Clexa oneshots)

Apologize

My take on what happens when Clarke and Lexa meet after Mount Weather.

Tbh, this is probably similar to a LOT of other fanfics out there. I dont know. Y'all decide on that. Enjoy peeps! ;)

[Clarke's POV]

I have been walking for hours through this forest, not knowing where I am heading. The sun is setting, so I should be getting out of the open now.

But where am I supposed to go? Who am I going to have to face? If I go to back to Camp Jaha I'll have to see everyone who I set free from Mount Weather. Sure, I did the right thing and saved my people, but what about how I got them out. I can't live with that. Killing those innocent lives; children who didn't even have a clue of the feud between us, and especially people who dedicated their lives in protecting my people and fighting against their own because of what they believed in. Seeing the faces of my people would remind me of the innocent faces I killed.

I am a murderer.

What have I become? I used to treasure every life, especially down here on Earth. Every life mattered. I never believed in taking lives for the sake of justice. I've become a monster.

Ever since Lexa...

I snap out of my thoughts, "Lexa."

A voice came from behind me, "I told you that we'd meet again."

The sound of that familiar voice makes me cringe. The last time I heard that voice saying those words was before everything happened. I turned around and saw her, Saw Lexa. She looked like she had been crying... but why should I care?

She swallows, as if she is scared of facing me like this, "Clarke, it's getting dark out. Come with me to camp where you'll be safe."

"What makes you think I'm going to go anywhere with you, let alone trust you even for a second." I stand there in anger, "Why am I even talking to you?"

"Clarke, you don't have to trust me, but it's starting to get dark, and there are still reapers out here."

"So? I'll fight them off, run away, do anything to stay far, far away from the likes of you."

"You can barely even fight, you don't even have a weapon and you looked tired out."

"Then give me your knife, your sword. Either that or I'll just die, let them come after me." I yelled as loud as I could, " Come and get me, you stupid reapers!"

"Clarke shush!" I glared at her again and shake my head in annoyance of her presence.

"Tell me commander, why are you even out here, and alone?" I knew she was hurt when I had not called her by her name. But the pain she's feeling now, is nothing compared to how much she has hurt me.

"I ordered one of my guards to follow you, to make sure you were safe. Once they reported to me of what you did to save your people, I ran out looking for you."

We stand there seeing eye to eye, neither of us wanting to look away.

I break the silence, "I'm sorry, is this the part where I'm suppose to thank you?"

"Clarke you are not a killer."

"How am I supposed to believe that? After killing all those people, all of those INNOCENT people, Commander. You left me and my people in there to die, and all you did was walk away."

"Did you think I had a choice?! I did it for my people, they had tortured them for decades, before I was even born and they gave me and them a way out of it. I did it for my people's sake, as did you! "