Trauma • Carlisle Cullen

Diary of the Cullens (Chapter 18)

Carlisles entry:

Dear Diary,
It has been 2 weeks since El disappeared. I feel so lonely now that she's gone. Is this what she felt, but worse when I left?! I hope we find some sort of clue of where she is. Eleanor is my mate and I love her more than anything. Eleanor IS my everything. I can't seem to focus on work or anything at all. Wherever she is, I hope she isn't hurt, except she can't be hurt! She's a vampire!

Esme's entry:

Dear Diary,
Carlisle has been getting worse by the day, he has just gone out to hunting after a week! At least he has self control to even be at work. I hope we find El soon, I can't stand seeing my brother like this, neither can Jasper, he feels Carlisle's emotions and he can feel the guilt that Carlisle is putting on himself.

Rosalie's entry:

Dear Diary, I don't really care about where El has gone, but Emmett has been really sad lately. Eleanor was like a sister to Emmett and now Emmett watches his funny shows and just can't laugh. It's sad to watch my mate not be himself.

Emmett's entry:

Dear Diary,
I really miss El. She was like a little sister to me! I love her like a sister and it's really lonely and dull at school and at my own house without her. I can't watch our favorite shows without her, they are just boring without her. I remember when we would have arm wrestles and I would beat her every time. I want my sister back, I NEED my sister back.

Jasper's entry:

Dear Diary, I feel everyone's emotions in the house, it is like an emotional trainwreck, the is guilt, sadness, and anger going around and I hate having to feel this. It reminds me of the newborns I killed in my past. I hope El is ok though, I always helped with her anxiety and I'm sure wherever she is, she needs some emotional support. Eleanor would never leave without telling us.

Alice's diary:

Dear Diary, I hope I have a vision about El soon, I could use at least 5 seconds of a glimpse of where she is. Usually, when I don't have a vision of someone, it means they're dead, but I'm not going to crush anyones hope. Jasper is really taking a hit from this though, everyone feels a different way about this and Jasper has to feel it all. My poor Jasp.

Edward's diary:

Dear Diary, Bella has been really worried over Eleanor, I try to keep her distracted but she is always thinking about her friend. I hope she starts forgetting about El soon. I heard Alice think that El is dead because she has no visions of her. Emmett keeps thinking, "what if she doesn't come back?" And don't even get me started about Jasper's mind, his mind is whacko enough.