Madness oneshots and hcs (requests open)

Not good enough-Deimos angst

Author's Note:Heeheehoohoo *traumatises your Deimos* trigger warning for telling people to kys + panic attack and S/H

"YOU DONT GET IT!" Deimos yelled. He glared at Sanford. "I was trying! I tried my hardest! I just- I couldn't-". "Liar, you barely tried to hold them back at all!" Sanford snapped back. "I did try! I swear! I promise!" Deimos shouted, tears beginning to form in his eyes. "You didn't try hard enough" Sanford said, the anger showing in both his voice and his face. "I fucking told you! I did try hard enough! I just couldn't hold on, and-" "forget it Deimos" Sanford said, turning away. "You're not good enough".

You're not good enough

The words echoed inside Deimos's brain. His throat felt tight, he couldn't breathe. The world began to swim before his eyes. Deimos ran to the bathroom and slammed the door shut.

You're not good enough

Deimos looked at himself in the mirror. He was good enough! He was, was he? Deimos clutched the edge of the sink tightly to stop himself falling over. He wasn't good enough. The memories were coming back. Memories he wanted to leave behind. Memories of the agency.

Out of the way pipsqueak, why didn't they just kill you like they do with all the other failed clones?

You're not fit to be an agent loser, you should just kill yourself and save us the effort

You're not good enough, stop trying

You're not good enough. And you never will be

Deimos tried to sort his thoughts out, tried to push the bad ones away, but when he looked in the mirror, he saw himself in an agent's outfit. Deimos yelled in panic and without thinking punched the glass. A loud crash echoed through the air and Deimos sank to his knees. Tears were flowing down his face. He felt so worthless. He just wanted a way to stop. Deimos slammed his head into the cabinet doors beneath the sink. A jolt of pain shot through his head and he did it again, and again, and again. Deimos was aware of another banging, this one at the door. And a voice yelling. But with one final blow, Deimos smashed his head into the cabinet and knocked himself out.