A River Flows Through Us

You broke me first..

It was at this moment that Kaden, Lizzy and I knew we fucked up. What was supposed to be a fun night turned into a throwing up party in Kaden's bathroom. For the last 2 hours we each had been taking turns throwing up in the toilet. To say we looked like a hot mess is an understatement.

Lizzy was resting her head on the toilet, while Kaden rubbed her back. I was sitting in the door frame resting. My stomach finally started to settle, so I didn't want to take a chance in getting sick again by moving to fast.

"I'm never drinking again." Lizzy said crying.

"Liz you say that every time." Kaden laughed.

"Yeah but this time I mean it." She said.

"You say that every time too." I say. We all chuckled. After a few moments for silence i said, "What if i'm gay?"

Lizzy finally lifted her head from the seat. "Your not gay." She said with a straight face.

I gasped at her assumption. "What I could be?" I say.

"There's only room in this family for one gay sibling, and I have held that title for years. So you are going to have to get your shit together." Kaden said making us all laugh.

"But i could be." I say quietly.

"No your not, you like dick to much." Lizzy said.

"Man y'all know who has a really big dick-." Kaden said giggling.

"Don't say his name!" I say quietly not wanting to throw up again.

"How big was you know who's?" Lizzy said looking at me.

"Well it was like," I say moving my hands to show, but I kept moving my hands between different sizes and start laughing and say. "I can't remember."

We all start laughing, a knock at the front door made all of us turn our heads. "G can go see who that is." Kaden asked me. I nodded and tried to get up slowly not wanting to get sick again.

I finally made it out the bedroom when the person on the other side of the door knocked again. "Hang on! Jesus!" I say holding on to the wall to walk. It took another few moments to make it to the door.

I opened it up slowly to see the person I didn't want to see right now. "Hey." He said so softly. I didn't want to let him in, but part of me felt the need to talk to him. So I moved out the way, holding my stomach. Knox walked through the door and shut it. I turn to look at him. "What happened here?" He asked looking at me. I knew I probably looked rough. It had been a long few hours.

"A drunken sick disaster," I say closing my eyes trying not to throw up again. "That i can't repeat without wanting to throw up again."

"Oh dang," He said moving the hair in his face to behind his ear. "Is there anything I can do?"

"You can tell me why your here." I say coldly, not wanting to show him how sad he made me. I promised myself i'd never let a man see they made me cry again after Derek, and I wasn't going to slip up now. Deep down I wanted to break down right there.