A Thousand Hills

Falling

I don't know if it's possible to fall in love with someone in just a space of 3 weeks?
Especially because I've spent the past 5 months disliking him.
I'm just going to say it's being pampered and the good sex that has me sprung

I haven't lifted a finger since being with Phakamile.
I'm physically fine now but he still insists on showering with me and doing every thing for me. I really like this being loved stuff

I love when he kisses me just to kiss me, not to initiate sex but he has moments were he just kisses me deeply and holds me just because

The first week when he didn't want to have to sex was just out of this world. There's a level of intimacy I didn't know I missed out on and needed.

Every hi, bye. Morning, goodnight. Please, thank you and sorry comes with a kiss, a squeeze or a cuddle.
Thinking about it makes me want to cry. To think I thought I'd be happy to die a spinster with dogs and wine drunk seems silly now

Currently he's on a virtual business call, and I'm packing up as our flight leaves in 3 hours.
The weekend turned into 3 whole weeks

Our first night was really the game changer, after Phakamile refused to have sex with me.
He proceeded to smoke his joint while we listened to Angie Stone's Stay For A While' on loop
We spoke about the week that was, from work, to my exams and his birthday celebration

At some point after 2am, we got hungry and decided to take a walk to the petrol station because it has a 24hr take away joint.
Neither of us had the common sense to order room service or go to the kitchen because he owns the place.

That's where I finally felt like I met Phakamile
He was carefree the whole time and made jokes about our 'weird' encounters.

" Okay okay, fair enough but what about that time you called me a raccoon and told me to go home?" I asked after he claimed he was never rude to me and he smiled humbly

"I said you LOOK like one, because you had eye bags and your face was puffy.
You run such a tight ship that we could handle 1 day without you so I thought it was best you went home, I even sent flowers", he said no longer teasing

I remember that the night before I had gone to therapy and came home crying.
I tried studying but ended up high behind the house looking at the stars while listening to Abraham Hicks Affirmations.

By the time logic came back it was 4 in the morning so I just went to the gym then work. Only for him to accuse me of looking like a raccoon and told me to go home.

I drove home in tears thinking I had been fired, only to receive Spa vouchers from the Jhb hotel and flowers with a note that read

'You can work from home for the remainder of the week, keep both your phones on'. He even called about some work related issues as if he hadn't said that to me

Hearing his side of the story made me uncomfortable, I had no idea I looked that bad, if anything I looked amazing.

He could tell the memory wasn't pleasant to me and actually apologised, I'm sure for the first time in his life. His defence being that because of his rasp and deep voice, a lot of people assume the worst of him.
I didn't buy that lie because I saw the look on his face that day.

After a while of clearing the air we ended up at a petrol station when we realised he had forgotten his wallet back at the hotel.
The poor attendant must have thought we had lost our minds the way we were laughing

"Arg it's fine, we'll just get room service" - I said remembering he told me about the 24hr room service Menu when he was meant to go out with Nsizwa

We had that eye lock moment wondering why we didn't do that to begin with and it set us off again